After the parliamentary committee recommended against expanding MAID to include mental illness last month, I'm worried that our PM will act in line with this conclusion. By March 17th of the new year, we will have a definite answer.
I've been following this proposal since around 2020 after a failed attempt in 2019. I've also tried to source SN in the past, but had it intercepted by customs. Since then I've largely given up entirely. I've been coasting through an apathetic (and pathetic) drugged out alcoholic haze, watching for this decision continually get pushed back.
I'm ~mid functioning autistic and well aware that I will fuck up any attempt to CTB just like I fuck up anything serious in my life. The idea of a team of medical professionals giving me a painless lethal injection just sounds so incredible that I have to hope it could be real. It's the only thing I have left to look forward to.
Anyone else in the same boat?
I'm also in Canada, undiagnosed AuDHD, waiting for MAID. I also tried to get SN, it was seized and police came to my door.
I'm currently looking into CO method, which looks promising. I bought a meter to measure the CO levels to make sure it's high enough. My problem is my Pathological Demand Avoidance is causing me to procrastinate. So lately I've been trying to live "recklessly" to help instigate action.
I'm tortured in my current living situation and have never been interested in existence or building a future. I was able to distract myself for a while, but soon a lot of physical and mental ailments began to take its toll on me, and my resilience is withering. I don't want to continue this suffering, and I yearn for a peaceful ending. It's truly all I have ever wanted. But I was never able to tell anyone who would understand.
Suicide is viewed as selfish and an emotional outburst at it's peak. The problem is most people do not think objectively about what it means to be born without consent, and given a biological bias towards living. They haven't challenged themselves: if I TRULY have agency, what does it mean if my Will to Live is no my choice, but my innate trajectory? You are not deciding that direction, you are simply going with the flow of nature. The next logical question is, how do you determine when you actually
choose to live, instead of just succumbing to your biology? We often have an affinity for denying or departing our human nature. Why is this topic specifically ignored? The answer is that people are afraid to find out they prefer death, and what that means for their life. Denial is often the first step. But it does require awareness. That's the true issue. People are voluntarily blind, and the peer pressure to conform strips our agency.
I also doubt it will get approved, because there is still a stigma against taking a life that isn't socially acceptable. We praise murder of a rapist or terrorist, and will save the life of the general populace without hesitation. Humans have abused animals and lesser life for centuries. This morality towards human life is the crux of the problem. We think we are superior and capable of being God; deciding what reality means and acting accordingly. Our hubris is our downfall. Until we think logically and objectively, we cannot solve this problem.
If you cannot give consent to birth, the logical compensation is the opportunity to give consent to your death. We support safe, peaceful and organized birth as a default, backed by the help of modern medicine. We should treat death with the same dignity.
The concern I often hear against legalizing assisted suicide is:
1. our loved ones can no longer be coerced into living, and less barriers will guarantee their suicide.
2. population will plummet, causing economic havoc
But the truth is that:
1. If no one has the right to take your life, then no one has the right to force you to live. Two sides of the same coin. We just have a bias to 1 side.
2. what does it say about society that we are more concerned about humans utility, instead of nurturing their desire to live?
It seems unethical to force a population to live, with some expectation that positive change will occur naturally. Time has shown that we are only digging deeper and deeper into Dystopia. The harsh reality is that society will truly reconsider what is means to live if we supported and assisted suicide. No longer would we view life as an obstacle, but now a choice. Is that not the power we all desire? Ultimate control?
It sucks being thoughtful. Ignorance is bliss.
