Any other 1+ year old active users on here.

[Sabriel]

I've mostly been hiding in the background, but I've been around since the SS discord got shutdown. I didn't create a profile here until much later...I keep wavering on how and when I'm going to ctb, but it's nice to know there's a space where I can vent out some of my darkest, suicide related thoughts. Sometimes I find some of random community here to be shitty, like being told in chat "WOW you've been around here forever, why?", as if I should be ashamed I haven't killed myself yet. I feel like I should have been dead a long time ago but there's always one excuse or another. Maybe I'm just waiting to see if there actually is a rock bottom?

 

[lostangel]

Yes, I'm over a year on this site

 

[Broken Chimera]

It's almost a year for me and I'm surprised I'm still around tbh. I came for the methods, but I stayed for the community.

 

[Life sucks]

For me, it's outright harrowing to see so many people in pain. To stand all this death, I have to tell myself that many will manage to get through their ordeals alive. My post was just an innocent expression of this and absolutely not meant to put pressure on anyone. Not that I can see how it could. Those who have been here for a long time hardly care what my hopes are.



I've noticed a few posts and threads which are judgemental, as you say. To me, that's probably the most surreal aspect of this forum, even more so than the goodbye threads and SN threads. They are being judged for fighting to recover or for struggling with the probably most difficult decision one can make in life. Those who are judgmental are basically saying, "Why are you trying? Why don't you just give up instead?" Again, surreal.

Thanks, I understand what you said and I know you weren't putting pressure. I tried to explain the situation and there more details. Unfortunately, life is full of suffering and the forum is one of the only places to talk for many.
There are many who want to ctb but still didn't for a long time, there are many different factors for each one. I think one of the biggest problems for long time members is not having method research and new ideas.

 

[Halo13]

Coming up on a year here soon, was researching methods sometime in early 2019 before joining. Had 4 failures/attempts since then. I didn't expect to be here a year, not even a month.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I came here to research methods because I have lost my apartment but I recovered and put on a disability.
Second time I fucked up even worse and came here again.
It's like I am cursed or something.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Still here and definitely getting worse. Heck, it seems like when I joined I was much better but now I'm not doing well at all and when I joined I was near death. I'm embarrassed by still being here, the site is full of empathic users which is great but something is seriously wrong and I'm slipping so far down into depression that getting out of this looks like it will take a casket or cremation.
I'm freaking out right now, I wish someone could help me

peace/hugs❤

You're one of my favorite people here. I want to help, but don't know how. =[

 

[Busdriver]

I have a feeling I will become the eldest member..

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I'm still alive sadly

 

[LonelyLight]

I'm almost a year.. I don't know if that calls for a yay or nay. Nevertheless I hope everyone is coping okay with current times
Hugs x

 

[StillWaiting]

I am still waiting

 

[watereyes]

nya

 

[Mr2005]

Coming up three now

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Coming up three now

Glad you are still with us. (Selfishly) I have been here 3 years also. You're avatar is awesome.

 

[Largeletters]

Yeah, a year and a half, but I wish I'd found SS sooner. My usage on this site is very intermittent. I've dropped out of sight for months, then been active every single day for months. It depends really.

 

[Darkhaven]

Coming up three now

Glad you are still with us. (Selfishly) I have been here 3 years also. You're avatar is awesome.

2019 team is still alive!! ❤

 

[Darkhaven]

2019 team is still alive!! ❤

@Mr2 @not- only now have i realised that both of you have been here since 2018, but hey, that's probably a good sign (i hope).
Hope you are all okay.