NSFW Any of you worried about being killed

[Drogon]

Worried ? No , I would look forward to it

 

[urgent]

I wish someone would kill me right now but I'm sure I would still be scared. I'm scared I'm going to die in a very painful way very soon from my health. I desperately wish I could get medication to end it quickly. I'm suffering so much, I can't believe how much pain I'm in and a constant state of panic and fear because my body is so sick I can't control it. I wish I could be given iv and die now. Nothing touches the brutal pain. I wish I could find a doctor, hospice worker, someone must have gotten the MAiD compound and not used it, a vet, anyone I could get something to take asap. I would help someone suffering so much, but I can't find someone who could manage it without getting caught.

 

[webb&flow]

This reminds me of intrusive thoughts, perhaps in OCD phenomena as well; one example being "what if me thinking this thought kills someone I love"?

Violence statistically is going down, and we always hear about people being killer, yet, we never hear reports of people being not killed. Think about it: millions of people, every day, come home safe, in their homes, not threatened or endangered or killed; and even more sleep without any threat killing them, going on to wake up the next day, with no killer or burgular bothering them.

I don't think I explained myself very well. I just meant that most people don't really walk around thinking about how fragile everything is. Sometimes I just get this quiet thought that life can stop at any moment.

Guess I meant having the overwhelming anxiety of it all.

I understand that. Feeling our life is fragile is such a terrifying feeling.

This idea from Epicurus helps me to worry a bit less about death unexpectedly entering upon me:

When we are here, death is not here. When death is here, we are not here.

I mean it in this way. If I'm walking down the street, and somebody nails me in the head with a bullet, I'm probably going to be lights out before I even know what hit me. So, it's not my problem before it happens, and it's not my problem after it happens. So I shouldn't fear, nor care, and just accept that I can do what I can, and maybe that's enough.

I think there is genuinely a lot we can do, though.

I think it can be good to recall that a lot of causes of death are more slow things, like unhealthy habits that can be changed over time (both physiological and cognitive). A lot of death causes are not instant but slow, and so we have far more control over them than we may realize.

FoxSauce, do you think cognitive behavioural therapy might help with your specific fear on this? I recognise you may have tried it already, but I want to emphasise this just in case it's an available option for you. A lot of these anxieties come from information or conclusions about how we believe the way the world works—for example, being scared about being killed if you hear news claiming street killings are common. But I would wager if we came to know of, say, statistics showing street killing rates are plummeting in modern years, we may very well just feel a bit better about our own safety and very own life :).

 

[YourLocalSadGirly]

I often worry about this because I want to die peacefully using my preferred method. I'm constantly paranoid that I'll be kidnapped or murdered or raped or something like that. I still want to die I'm just so afraid of dying painfully or under circumstances outside my control. I know it's just my anxiety disorder acting up but I still can't help but feel this way.

 

[webb&flow]

For the United States:

What's Driving the Drop in Homicide? How Low Might It Go? - Council on Criminal Justice

CCJ brought together leading experts to assess what’s driving the homicide decline, including changes in criminal justice policy, shifts in technology use, and broader social and economic trends.

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[interna]

no i actually want it. someone trying to rob me, trying to stand up against them, dying just like that either stabbed or shot. just your everyday story. neither important nor remarkable. itd be pretty good

 

[yotaka]

I suppose I also lean towards suicide for the autonomy it embodies. Being murdered is having your autonomy ripped away in the most brutal way. That's something that sickens me about this world. Everyone trampling on one another for their own gratification. If suicide is an act of self determination, murder is its absolute opposite. So, I kind of hate it for that reason too. It means the bullies in this world are winning.

Well said. I very much feel this. Having the power to exit in a place and manner of my choosing is, to me, the last shred of liberation in the face this oppressive existence.

It comes as an installed instinct to (yes, as an AFAB) either be afraid of being murdered for the sake of some loser's ego, or via some freak accident. But what adds to that presumption of fear is our current political environment in America and the anxiety that some pasty fuck will take issue with your shaded existence. Sure, I've delved into the hubris of self-distain so far that I've questioned whether to offer my life to be snuffed out in a sundown town. But... that death would also be pretty embarrassing. Pretty cringe.

I'm sorry this country is so awful. For a while there I really thought things were moving in a better direction, but... here we are.

 

[liquid-crystal daze]

I think everybody deserves the dignity of choosing when to go out or being able to come to peace before they do go out, and since I'm not actively worried about or scared of dying or being killed (besides subconscious instinct), I don't think I mind. Also, if the hypothetical killer is skilled enough, it might also save me (the dead me?) the embarrassment of distant family handling my remains.

 

[Unlucky777]

I wish someone would kill me so I don't have to do it myself. I'd be really happy to cross paths with a murderer now.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

Well said. I very much feel this. Having the power to exit in a place and manner of my choosing is, to me, the last shred of liberation in the face this oppressive existence.


I'm sorry this country is so awful. For a while there I really thought things were moving in a better direction, but... here we are.

I don't believe you need to be sorry unless you are either contributing to or ignoring the faults of our country. We're all stuck here as of now, so we have to try to tackle issues—if not through our actions, then through our words. Further, we also need to recognize global concerns and unrest.

(Cheesy GIF is cheesy)

 

[cakedog]

not really
i will have to cross some pretty sketchy neighborhoods to reach the forest and someone shooting me would feel like a blessing
i'm kind of wishing for it to happen, would save me all the hanging setup headache

 

[cluefixphantom]

Yes, I often worry about being raped and killed because, unfortunately, I fall into the vulnerable target group for offenders. That's also one reason why I tell myself I'd rather go on my own terms than experience more harm. I'm poor anyway. If someone doesn't quite understand what I mean, I'm almost as badly off as female turtles.

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/02/14/science/tortoises-island-sex-cliff.html

My area is extrem rightwingconservative/liberal and I am poor and disabled, female. Here is nothing to do other than waiting (sleeping, reading) then do CTB or die from organ failure. Maybe playing some games, complaining to autorities but that was it. Nobody cares. I hate my parents and this society.

I hope all the PFAS (forever chemicals) in the water will finally make everyone infertile. There are also other vulnerable women and children here who are quickly locked up and mistreated in psychiatric hospitals, just because they are easy targets. I feel sorry for them too. Here is no life quality.

 

[wishingiwasok]

Is a discussion but I labeled it nsfw just un case.

Like the question says
Anyone you worried about you can be just chilling and then BAM! Killed?

Or is it a sort of thing you came to peice with ? Like live your live like your last day?

Does it occupy your mind most of the time? Or have you come to peace with it?

Ik too many questions but Im in the middle ground I sometimes wanna die but not shot at or something oe a disaster.

When I was younger- (eesh weird to say) I used overly overthink I coukd die anywhere and see many dead people (felt like a daydream ig yet vivid?) Idk if any of you had this sort of thing.

I rather post it here cuz well speaking to someone about it irl is too negative or morbid.

I would be good with just bang and it's done. I fear that it wouldn't be fast and the horrible things some people who kill people do before the killing part. If it wasn't for that, the idea that things could just stop hurting and no one would be upset with me and I wouldn't have to do anything is actually kind of great.