HopefulSleep
Wants to sleep
- Apr 24, 2023
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The longest private time at home I have is 2 hours circa when my family goes shopping for circa an hour and my idea would be to go in the shower and turn it on before I ctb so that when they arrive they think I started showering which would save me an extra hour.
The other time I could do this is when my mom goes to work and my sister is still sleeping and I can put on whale sounds to compress the sound of the method but the method can't be too loud then.
The problem with going out to ctb is that my si is higher outside.
My preferred method if I can somehow get the money would be overdosing on rc benzos and rc opioids and after that put a plastic bag over my head with a rubber band and hold it open so that when I black out it snaps back to my neck and I suffocate and don't feel it.
I overdosed on downers in the past and didn't feel anything until I was in emergency room so I don't think I would feel suffocation.
Overdose on strong downers can take to 3 hours I think so to speed it up I would use the plastic bag.
If I can't get the money my best bet would be sn I think and as far as I know in the most cases it takes an hour but the problem is it can take up to 4 hours so I don't have enough time in the shower for sure.
I could do it when my mother is working and my sister still sleeping with whale sounds on and hope that it isn't too loud.
I am thinking of putting a bag with rubber band over my head like I would do with downer overdose so that I die by suffocation and the sn is to pass out but I don't know if that is a good idea.
What I also thought about was instead of using a plastic bag to suffocate I would either take downers or sn but in a bath full of water and try to position myself so that I slip in when I pass out and drown but I am afraid that I won't slip in and it seems more risky than a bag.
I can't get partial hanging to work, I just can't get myself to pass out and even when I get it right I don't know how to ctb with this without si kicking in.
Drowning seems to be impossible to do without it feeling agonizing.
I can maybe get a pistol but it is possible to end up with brain damage with small guns I think.
Full hanging is too painful.
Nitrogen is way too expensive and if I could get the money it would be impossible to transport it to my home.
Do you have any other idea what I could do?
The other time I could do this is when my mom goes to work and my sister is still sleeping and I can put on whale sounds to compress the sound of the method but the method can't be too loud then.
The problem with going out to ctb is that my si is higher outside.
My preferred method if I can somehow get the money would be overdosing on rc benzos and rc opioids and after that put a plastic bag over my head with a rubber band and hold it open so that when I black out it snaps back to my neck and I suffocate and don't feel it.
I overdosed on downers in the past and didn't feel anything until I was in emergency room so I don't think I would feel suffocation.
Overdose on strong downers can take to 3 hours I think so to speed it up I would use the plastic bag.
If I can't get the money my best bet would be sn I think and as far as I know in the most cases it takes an hour but the problem is it can take up to 4 hours so I don't have enough time in the shower for sure.
I could do it when my mother is working and my sister still sleeping with whale sounds on and hope that it isn't too loud.
I am thinking of putting a bag with rubber band over my head like I would do with downer overdose so that I die by suffocation and the sn is to pass out but I don't know if that is a good idea.
What I also thought about was instead of using a plastic bag to suffocate I would either take downers or sn but in a bath full of water and try to position myself so that I slip in when I pass out and drown but I am afraid that I won't slip in and it seems more risky than a bag.
I can't get partial hanging to work, I just can't get myself to pass out and even when I get it right I don't know how to ctb with this without si kicking in.
Drowning seems to be impossible to do without it feeling agonizing.
I can maybe get a pistol but it is possible to end up with brain damage with small guns I think.
Full hanging is too painful.
Nitrogen is way too expensive and if I could get the money it would be impossible to transport it to my home.
Do you have any other idea what I could do?