I've always had a special little bucket list in my head of things I can only do when I'm about to ctb. I have a lot of responsibilities in my life that are holding me back from leaving, but if I can figure out how to burn those bridges and release myself of those commitments and responsibilities, the first and last thing I would do before ctb is take all the money I have saved, go on a whole road trip and just start marking things off.
I want to go to a rave
I want to try cigarettes
I want to crash a wedding
I want to have sex with a stranger
I want to climb a mountain
I want to fly in a plane
I want to beat up the man my ex cheated on me with
I want to get so high I get sick
I want to see the northern lights
And everything else I would think of along the way.
I'd keep going till I run out of money, run out of steam, or find something worth living for
Then, one way or another, the road trip would end somewhere beautiful