Venting Anxious and Indecisive

[schizoidoll]

I'm generally not an impulsive person and I've been unable to make up my mind about if I should try committing or not. But lately I keep pushing the limits further and further. I read about the ligature method tonight and actually got up, found some shoelaces and wrapped them around my neck, all while contemplating whether I should tie the knots. I wish I could just make up my mind once and for all, and just decide to power through the survival instinct. My mind is so foggy nowadays and I keep getting these intense full body tremors like I'm on edge all the time. I can't stop thinking about killing myself, it's a constant intrusive thought.

 

[rainhappy]

I'm generally not an impulsive person and I've been unable to make up my mind about if I should try committing or not. But lately I keep pushing the limits further and further. I read about the ligature method tonight and actually got up, found some shoelaces and wrapped them around my neck, all while contemplating whether I should tie the knots. I wish I could just make up my mind once and for all, and just decide to power through the survival instinct. My mind is so foggy nowadays and I keep getting these intense full body tremors like I'm on edge all the time. I can't stop thinking about killing myself, it's a constant intrusive thought.

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