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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
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Nasty mix right? I am surprised I am still alive after 10 years of this shit. I feel like I cannot keep going anymore, I love my family and friends, but this is too much. I should be happy, I should be grateful. I live in great country with amazing mental healthcare. My country suppose to be happiest country on earth.
 
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judestfrancis

judestfrancis

Life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss
Dec 21, 2023
22
You shouldn't be anything other than genuine to yourself. I'm sorry life has dealt you a shit hand, and you shouldn't feel any guilt for not being able to be happy through it. you deserve peace moreso than the people you love deserve to keep you miserable. it is really hard when it feels like you should theoretically have all the good things in life, but as is the way, its not always enough. lots of hugs and love to you
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
You shouldn't be anything other than genuine to yourself. I'm sorry life has dealt you a shit hand, and you shouldn't feel any guilt for not being able to be happy through it. you deserve peace moreso than the people you love deserve to keep you miserable. it is really hard when it feels like you should theoretically have all the good things in life, but as is the way, its not always enough. lots of hugs and love to you
Thanks, I gotta keep going. I cannot give up, cannot give up. It is tempting. I am not afraid of death. I see death as relief and release, but I am afraid of suffering.
 
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judestfrancis

judestfrancis

Life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss
Dec 21, 2023
22
Thanks, I gotta keep going. I cannot give up, cannot give up. It is tempting. I am not afraid of death. I see death as relief and release, but I am afraid of suffering.
you will make it through this, as you have everything else in your path. its not easy, but there are people who will understand whatever decision you make 🤗
 
DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
Anyone else experiencing similar mental health problems?
 
depressedinsomniac

depressedinsomniac

Student
Dec 29, 2024
123
i have these plus insomnia...it's pretty terrible...my shizophrenia is not that bad but it came about late in life in my 40s. i honestly don't understand how you lived so long.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,004
It sounds like you've suffered so much, it's really so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.
 

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