Does anyone else get the urge due to anxiety? I actually deleted my account this evening. My paranoia was in high gear and I didn't want to be complicit in anyone's decision to CTB. Anxiety is a bitch. I am, right now, spiraling in anxiety. All the things I need to do seem so insurmountable. I guess that's the depression part clouding my judgement.
I applied for a LOA from work. I am waiting on my psychiatrist to fill out/approve my leave. My anxiety tells me something will happen and my leave will be denied. I am anxious about my finances from being out of work for at least two weeks. I have some money saved up; just enough to cover a month maybe month and half before I have to go back to work. I always expect the worst.
I have moments of clarity, seeing realistically, that my life despite seeming chaos, is actually "under control', but my anxious mind, at 2 am, tells me everything is falling apart. My solution that relieves my anxiety is if things get too bad, I ll ctb. I am sure many here can relate how our depression and anxiety warp our view of reality.
I just needed to get my thoughts out and I appreciate your reading. Curious if other's primary trigger is their anxiety. Drop your thoughts, I could use some commiserating, or hearing your struggles w/ anxiety or depression... wishing you all the best!
I applied for a LOA from work. I am waiting on my psychiatrist to fill out/approve my leave. My anxiety tells me something will happen and my leave will be denied. I am anxious about my finances from being out of work for at least two weeks. I have some money saved up; just enough to cover a month maybe month and half before I have to go back to work. I always expect the worst.
I have moments of clarity, seeing realistically, that my life despite seeming chaos, is actually "under control', but my anxious mind, at 2 am, tells me everything is falling apart. My solution that relieves my anxiety is if things get too bad, I ll ctb. I am sure many here can relate how our depression and anxiety warp our view of reality.
I just needed to get my thoughts out and I appreciate your reading. Curious if other's primary trigger is their anxiety. Drop your thoughts, I could use some commiserating, or hearing your struggles w/ anxiety or depression... wishing you all the best!
