I manipulated my friend to leave me tf alone so i don't have any sort of immediate help to prevent me from CTB because i wanted to do it some days ago (i still want). Today i talked about it with my psychologist and she said that i manipulated her [i know, just don't blame me in my face :( please] and that what i actually feel instead of impotence is frustration, basically i'm frustrated because i can't be myself, and now that i think about it, i get it, i can't be myself around anyone because they won't accept me, everyone has morals or ethics they follow, i don't care about that and that isolates me. I don't even know if it's possible to know people that are like me or worse, i don't know if it's a good idea either. I feel isolated, alone, rejected. Like, can i be myself once without ending up in prision please ? (never been there because i'm avoiding it actively)
Just to be clear, i've done some really bad things that i won't be talking about here, i'm just venting. You all are free to say whatever you want replying here, i would like to hear the opinions actually.
Just to be clear, i've done some really bad things that i won't be talking about here, i'm just venting. You all are free to say whatever you want replying here, i would like to hear the opinions actually.
