Antiemetic is on the way

[Funeralprincess]

I'm really excited my antiemetic is coming. It's a step closer to where I want to be in terms of ending it all and I'm just so relieved it's so close. I don't have to deal with anything anymore, and that includes the horrible heart issues. I had a surgery that ended up doing more pain to my back, so that really didn't help much since I'm young, and it's just yet another reason to CTB. I honestly think regardless of heartbreak I would've ended up here because the medical system fucked with my physical health and allowed me to be without proper care, and that was with having access to better doctors yet these better doctors still dismiss patients lol so that did no good. This one older lady at the hospital said to me "it's sad to see a young beautiful woman being failed by doctors too. You don't deserve to have to deal with this type of pain. They're essentially killing you and being okay with it because they can".
I had no words because she was right. Even with access to the best care, those doctors still dismiss us. I Then realized then and there I would've Ended up CTB even still, and it just made me a little sad to have a sweet old lady recognize the horrors the medical system is placing on to the young people too

 

[literallydonee]

I'm really excited my antiemetic is coming. It's a step closer to where I want to be in terms of ending it all and I'm just so relieved it's so close. I don't have to deal with anything anymore, and that includes the horrible heart issues. I had a surgery that ended up doing more pain to my back, so that really didn't help much since I'm young, and it's just yet another reason to CTB. I honestly think regardless of heartbreak I would've ended up here because the medical system fucked with my physical health and allowed me to be without proper care, and that was with having access to better doctors yet these better doctors still dismiss patients lol so that did no good. This one older lady at the hospital said to me "it's sad to see a young beautiful woman being failed by doctors too. You don't deserve to have to deal with this type of pain. They're essentially killing you and being okay with it because they can".
I had no words because she was right. Even with access to the best care, those doctors still dismiss us. I Then realized then and there I would've Ended up CTB even still, and it just made me a little sad to have a sweet old lady recognize the horrors the medical system is placing on to the young people too

Oh my gosh, I am being failed medically too and realized I wanted to CTB too after finding out how fucked I am. How did you get your AE? Are you in the US? Did you get meto? I am so so sorry for what you're going through, I relate SO SO much.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Oh my gosh, I am being failed medically too and realized I wanted to CTB too after finding out how fucked I am. How did you get your AE? Are you in the US? Did you get meto? I am so so sorry for what you're going through, I relate SO SO much.

So I used this app called the clove app. I had to pay for it and have like a consult, but the doctors there are way better. Basically I have to pay monthly but once I get my month bottle, I'm cancelling it so I'll only need that one. No regular in office doctors would give it to me. I didn't get meto because sometimes meto can actually cause vomiting and I'm already so sensitive to vomiting and nausea because of my heart issues so I went with the AE that starts with an O.. oxydextron Or something like that? I forget how to spell it but it's better for people like me. Meto can just actually make nausea worse sometimes so I don't want that one.
I'm sorry you're being failed medically too… it's so shitty

 

[literallydonee]

So I used this app called the clove app. I had to pay for it and have like a consult, but the doctors there are way better. Basically I have to pay monthly but once I get my month bottle, I'm cancelling it so I'll only need that one. No regular in office doctors would give it to me. I didn't get meto because sometimes meto can actually cause vomiting and I'm already so sensitive to vomiting and nausea because of my heart issues so I went with the AE that starts with an O.. oxydextron Or something like that? I forget how to spell it but it's better for people like me. Meto can just actually make nausea worse sometimes so I don't want that one.
I'm sorry you're being failed medically too… it's so shitty

Meto can cause vomiting? weird, I've never heard that anywhere. That sucks that you are sensitive to NV though that's so frustrating! Where did you hear that meto can cause or worsen NV? Is the one you got ondansetron perhaps? I hope that when the time comes for you that it's peaceful and successful. Thanks for the tips about the app! Did you ask for the specific AE or did the clove doc suggest it?

 

[Funeralprincess]

Meto can cause vomiting? weird, I've never heard that anywhere. That sucks that you are sensitive to NV though that's so frustrating! Where did you hear that meto can cause or worsen NV? Is the one you got ondansetron perhaps? I hope that when the time comes for you that it's peaceful and successful. Thanks for the tips about the app! Did you ask for the specific AE or did the clove doc suggest it?

Yes metroclopramide can cause that and worsen nausea. Look up the side effects of it; it's online and on the bottle lol my old doctor didn't want me taking it because it can cause what it's trying to prevent. Yes! Ondansetron is what it's called. I actually requested that one and the doctor in the app approved it

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable as to why you would be relieved at having a plan to leave. To me, the thought of being free from all suffering is comforting. Life does just seem to be never ending problems and misery. I wish you the best.

 

[literallydonee]

Yes metroclopramide can cause that and worsen nausea. Look up the side effects of it; it's online and on the bottle lol my old doctor didn't want me taking it because it can cause what it's trying to prevent. Yes! Ondansetron is what it's called. I actually requested that one and the doctor in the app approved it

That is so bizarre! I will make sure to try taking it ahead of time on an empty stomach to see if it does that to me. Thanks for the warning. I also have ondansetron so maybe ill just take both. All the best <3