Antidepressant ruined my life.

[Red_sleep]

Hi, I'm new here. 8 months ago a hell of chronic pain started and my life has just went down from there. It has continued to get better or worse, and that was enough to survive.

2 weeks ago I took a very small dose of an antidepressant prescribed for chronic pain. And a list of horrible symptoms came overnight. My emotions have been completely shut, I can't feel love for my gf, I can't enjoy video games, I can't cry or laugh, and I can't listen to music. Something has completely fucked my brain up. I also akathisia ish symptoms, I can't relax or sit still for most of the time. I feel uncomfortable all the time. I did read about pssd stories before, but i was dumb enough to take 1 pill for nerve pain. If this doesn't go away, my life is a death sentence.

There is no reason to live without emotions. I have become a zombie from 1 fucking pill. Worst part is my parents and doctors do absolutely not believe this.

I really don't wanna die. Life can be so amazing. But there has to be a limit for what a person can go through. This time I've been forced to kill myself. Fuck my doctor for giving me this. Fuck the medical world that allows this.

 

[cheese.out]

Im so sorry you have to go through so much bs, life can be really harsh. My experience with anti depressants were also very cursed. Either i was asleep the whole day or feeling numb. Whatever your decision will be, i wish you all the best and i hope you find the peace your looking for❤

 

[FuneralCry]

That really does sound so horrible what you have to endure, existence certainly is too cruel and I find it dreadful how people suffer so much all through no fault of their own. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Alltheywanted]

I'm so sorry for what you're having to go through. I hope your situation improves.
It's terrible what people in this world are capable of. Unfortunately, everyone is wiser after a loss, and not before it.
From my own experience, I can say that I have been taking antidepressants for about 5 months now and the only change I feel is that it is much harder for me to think. I guess the purpose of this is to stop me from having suicidal thoughts but well, it doesn't work.
Thanks for sharing this story and I hope you find what you are looking for on this site <3

 

[Gaga786]

Same thing happened with me. I was just 13 years old and was put on antidepressants and anti-psychotics based off a 15 min visit on the in the first sesssion. I was being bullied so I saw the psychiatrist regarding that, but I never in my life ever thought of suicide or harming myself before being given that poison.. Rather than doing something about the bullying, I was drugged for 7 years and ever since that I have never felt normal. I feel just like you. The worst thing is my psychiatrist is winning awards for her oustanding work in drugging children and Is winning in life. She recently went on a world tour aswell. She ruined my life with zero repercussions

 

[ordaysun]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Antidepressants can be truly awful. Maybe a different doctor can offer a better alternative?

 

[Red_sleep]

Same thing happened with me. I was just 13 years old and was put on antidepressants and anti-psychotics based off a 15 min visit on the in the first sesssion. I was being bullied so I saw the psychiatrist regarding that, but I never in my life ever thought of suicide or harming myself before being given that poison.. Rather than doing something about the bullying, I was drugged for 7 years and ever since that I have never felt normal. I feel just like you. The worst thing is my psychiatrist is winning awards for her oustanding work in drugging children and Is winning in life. She recently went on a world tour aswell. She ruined my life with zero repercussions

How are you today? Some people get better over time. But from my extreme reaction from 1 pill, i seriously think something completely altered in my brain. I talked to others than also have gotten PSSD from 1 pill. I can't live with this also now. I was close to accepting my chronic pain condition. Even tho that was bad i still had moments where i felt happiness. Like talking to my girlfriend and listening to music. Now i have nothing. Just 1 simple mistake.. Idk what to do.

You never felt your emotions recovered?

 

[Gaga786]

How are you today? Some people get better over time. But from my extreme reaction from 1 pill, i seriously think something completely altered in my brain. I talked to others than also have gotten PSSD from 1 pill. I can't live with this also now. I was close to accepting my chronic pain condition. Even tho that was bad i still had moments where i felt happiness. Like talking to my girlfriend and listening to music. Now i have nothing. Just 1 simple mistake.. Idk what to do.

You never felt your emotions recovered?

Unfortunately, no as of now. From what I have seen, it does eventually come back but it's a very slow process– it can take months to years.. I also feel like my brain is altered after those medications. Im currently tapering off it and will be fully off them in about a week.

 

[Red_sleep]

Unfortunately, no as of now. From what I have seen, it does eventually come back but it's a very slow process– it can take months to years.. I also feel like my brain is altered after those medications. Im currently tapering off it and will be fully off them in about a week.

I just can't believe this happened really. I didn't even need to take the pill. I already decided not to. I couldn't sleep and I just fuck it, woke up, and took the pill. The next day I experience horrible symptoms. Just a dumb mistake, but I had no idea it could have these life-changing complications. I have literally turned into a zombie. I feel nothing from anything.

I came here to look for a way to die. But even that feels too tiring to do. I don't have the motivation to prepare for anything. I'm too scared, I have zero energy. I know I will just suffer. The only method I like is N, but that's close to impossible to get.

 

[Gaga786]

I just can't believe this happened really. I didn't even need to take the pill. I already decided not to. I couldn't sleep and I just fuck it, woke up, and took the pill. The next day I experience horrible symptoms. Just a dumb mistake, but I had no idea it could have these life-changing complications. I have literally turned into a zombie. I feel nothing from anything.

I came here to look for a way to die. But even that feels too tiring to do. I don't have the motivation to prepare for anything. I'm too scared, I have zero energy. I know I will just suffer. The only method I like is N, but that's close to impossible to get.

Im really sorry, I truly understand your pain. I sometimes think how amazing my life would have been if I had not been drugged as a child and refused to trust the these doctors. Their whole field is flawed in my opinion and their belief that drugs are amazing treatments is nonsense. The worst thing is that they are the ones in power and can easily shut us down by labelling us mentally ill or invalidating our arguments against such medications. Everyone refuses to listen to us and monitor the side effects and debilitating effects of such medications. I really hope you feel better. it'll take time, but hang on

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

Hi, I'm new here. 8 months ago a hell of chronic pain started and my life has just went down from there. It has continued to get better or worse, and that was enough to survive.

2 weeks ago I took a very small dose of an antidepressant prescribed for chronic pain. And a list of horrible symptoms came overnight. My emotions have been completely shut, I can't feel love for my gf, I can't enjoy video games, I can't cry or laugh, and I can't listen to music. Something has completely fucked my brain up. I also akathisia ish symptoms, I can't relax or sit still for most of the time. I feel uncomfortable all the time. I did read about pssd stories before, but i was dumb enough to take 1 pill for nerve pain. If this doesn't go away, my life is a death sentence.

There is no reason to live without emotions. I have become a zombie from 1 fucking pill. Worst part is my parents and doctors do absolutely not believe this.

I really don't wanna die. Life can be so amazing. But there has to be a limit for what a person can go through. This time I've been forced to kill myself. Fuck my doctor for giving me this. Fuck the medical world that allows this.

Wow just wow I am truly sorry that the doctors took advantage of you. I hope those side effects go away.

 

[delora]

I'm sorry to hear that. I've seen a few people who reported having their lives wrecked in various ways by taking SSRIs, it's so scary.

I hate that most of society sees those who struggle and immediately recommends going for medication as if antidepressants were a "happy pill". Even some lazy therapists don't want to put in the hard work and would rather refer people to psychiatry in hopes of getting them on meds for a quicker fix. It seems like the medical community isn't putting enough weight on the possible consequences.

I know medicine can work as intended and make some people's lives better. I've been prescribed benzos myself and thankfully didn't have any bad side effects. But that's not the case for everyone (especially when it comes to SSRIs, it seems) so I really think these medications should be handled with much more care than they currently are. Sad.

Since you only took one pill, hopefully, what you're experiencing right now will pass. Best of luck.

 

[shantyizlit]

The worst thing is that they are the ones in power and can easily shut us down by labelling us mentally ill or invalidating our arguments against such medications.

They're also the people in society with some of the highest social standing. Just their own existence to themselves is validating because they're a caste above most people. They really do feel superior mentally than the clients they treat, at lost most of them, from my experience.

I hate that most of society sees those who struggle and immediately recommends going for medication as if antidepressants were a "happy pill". Even some lazy therapists don't want to put in the hard work and would rather refer people to psychiatry in hopes of getting them on meds for a quicker fix.

Yeah especially with the dire consequences these medications can have on people's lives. It's like they're completely forgetting or ignoring how debilitating these medications can be, and if there is literally any slight reason for someone to be put on these medications, the psychiatrists will always prefer to do that. Like these chemicals were some kind of wonder.
I've personally asked a psychiatrist how he feels about the lives he's ruined and about how many people his treatment has driven to suicide.
Psychiatry in general is just as nonsensical and barbaric as when we went on witch hunts in the middle ages lol. There really isn't much reason in it.

 

[d3c96524be95]

It's honestly the first time I hear about such horrific adverse event after taking just one dose of an anti-depressant. I'm very sorry that you're living through this, it sounds truly terrible. I had many bad interactions with anti-depressants (and more generally with many drugs supposed to "treat" depression), but definitely nothing even close to that. So frustrating how doctors are constantly overlooking how much these pills can have a propency to profoundly deteriorate one's quality of life in some cases.

Would you mind sharing the name of the molecule? I remember that Amitriptyline broke me pretty hard and fast, and I vaguely remember it can be used against chronic pain. I hope you'll get better soon.

 

[Red_sleep]

It's honestly the first time I hear about such horrific adverse event after taking just one dose of an anti-depressant. I'm very sorry that you're living through this, it sounds truly terrible. I had many bad interactions with anti-depressants (and more generally with many drugs supposed to "treat" depression), but definitely nothing even close to that. So frustrating how doctors are constantly overlooking how much these pills can have a propency to deteriorate one's quality of life in some cases.

Would you mind sharing the name of the molecule? I remember remember that Amitriptyline broke me pretty hard and fast, and I vaguely remember it can be used against chronic pain. I hope you'll get better soon.

The 1 pill was Amitriptyline(10mg)... Symptoms came overnight. 2 weeks after, no signs of improvement. On Reddit, I have found multiple posts about exactly these symptoms also just from 1 or a few pills.

I still can't accept it happened. It all depends on the person's unique brain chemistry whether or not you get these extreme reactions.

The worst part is every single doctor will decline this is possible. My parents too. No one believes me. I have to die and then be looked at as mentally insane. It's all just horrible.

 

[HAKMKS]

Hi, I'm new here. 8 months ago a hell of chronic pain started and my life has just went down from there. It has continued to get better or worse, and that was enough to survive.

2 weeks ago I took a very small dose of an antidepressant prescribed for chronic pain. And a list of horrible symptoms came overnight. My emotions have been completely shut, I can't feel love for my gf, I can't enjoy video games, I can't cry or laugh, and I can't listen to music. Something has completely fucked my brain up. I also akathisia ish symptoms, I can't relax or sit still for most of the time. I feel uncomfortable all the time. I did read about pssd stories before, but i was dumb enough to take 1 pill for nerve pain. If this doesn't go away, my life is a death sentence.

There is no reason to live without emotions. I have become a zombie from 1 fucking pill. Worst part is my parents and doctors do absolutely not believe this.

I really don't wanna die. Life can be so amazing. But there has to be a limit for what a person can go through. This time I've been forced to kill myself. Fuck my doctor for giving me this. Fuck the medical world that allows this.

I believe you. I've heard of this happening to others.

The 1 pill was Amitriptyline(10mg)... Symptoms came overnight. 2 weeks after, no signs of improvement. On Reddit, I have found multiple posts about exactly these symptoms also just from 1 or a few pills.

I still can't accept it happened. It all depends on the person's unique brain chemistry whether or not you get these extreme reactions.

The worst part is every single doctor will decline this is possible. My parents too. No one believes me. I have to die and then be looked at as mentally insane. It's all just horrible.

I had a hard time with noritryptyline

 

[MrDarkness]

Hi, I'm new here. 8 months ago a hell of chronic pain started and my life has just went down from there. It has continued to get better or worse, and that was enough to survive.

2 weeks ago I took a very small dose of an antidepressant prescribed for chronic pain. And a list of horrible symptoms came overnight. My emotions have been completely shut, I can't feel love for my gf, I can't enjoy video games, I can't cry or laugh, and I can't listen to music. Something has completely fucked my brain up. I also akathisia ish symptoms, I can't relax or sit still for most of the time. I feel uncomfortable all the time. I did read about pssd stories before, but i was dumb enough to take 1 pill for nerve pain. If this doesn't go away, my life is a death sentence.

There is no reason to live without emotions. I have become a zombie from 1 fucking pill. Worst part is my parents and doctors do absolutely not believe this.

I really don't wanna die. Life can be so amazing. But there has to be a limit for what a person can go through. This time I've been forced to kill myself. Fuck my doctor for giving me this. Fuck the medical world that allows this.

Anti depressants take around 3 to 4 weeks for those depressive symptoms to wear off, they should've warned you, if they last longer then 4 weeks then talk to your doctor, it's shit I know

 

[Red_sleep]

Anti depressants take around 3 to 4 weeks for those depressive symptoms to wear off, they should've warned you, if they last longer then 4 weeks then talk to your doctor, it's shit I know

Yeah but considering my severe reaction i'm scared it won't go away. All doctors i talked said this shouldn't be possible for one pill. And they said my symptoms should disspear ones its out of my system, which was last week...

 

[d3c96524be95]

The 1 pill was Amitriptyline(10mg)... Symptoms came overnight. 2 weeks after, no signs of improvement. On Reddit, I have found multiple posts about exactly these symptoms also just from 1 or a few pills.

I still can't accept it happened. It all depends on the person's unique brain chemistry whether or not you get these extreme reactions.

The worst part is every single doctor will decline this is possible. My parents too. No one believes me. I have to die and then be looked at as mentally insane. It's all just horrible.

Honestly, I remember Amitriptyline being one of the most terrible treatment I ever took and AFAIR its side-effects were rather persistent, so I'm only half-surpised to see its name cited here. For instance, its notice clearly stated that there wasn't any known withdrawal symptom associated to it, which was clearly, absolutely, undoubtedly *wrong*; giving up on it was an absolute torture. I was on a much higher dose than yours and I took it for a longer time, but I'd say it took me one month or two to fully recover from the withdrawal. I'm still confused that your issue arised after just one dose, but it's a peculiar type of anti-depressant that is widely known to not be well-tolerated by many people, so I don't know.

Good luck mate. I'm still optimistic for you, I don't if I should be.

 

[love_peep]

Oh my god that sounds so damn sad. I also take a bunch of pills, including two types of antidepressants, and this is not the best experience for these 4 months of depression, I lost everything and Now all I can do is sleep all day and think about the soonest ctb I am now like a vegetable that is glued to the bed. To be honest, it's very sad that at the age of 19 life set me up so that I don't have parents and relatives and you have to rely only on yourself. mine will come soon Sn and I'm finally done with all this shit

 

[MrDarkness]

Yeah but considering my severe reaction i'm scared it won't go away. All doctors i talked said this shouldn't be possible for one pill. And they said my symptoms should disspear ones its out of my system, which was last week...

Anti depressants, are known for having horrible side effects from once starting it, did your doctor proscribed it or a therapist or a psychiatrist?

 

[MrDarkness]

Yeah but considering my severe reaction i'm scared it won't go away. All doctors i talked said this shouldn't be possible for one pill. And they said my symptoms should disspear ones its out of my system, which was last week...

The severe reaction happens to a lot of people on anti depressants wait the 2-3 weeks, if it keeps happening switch the meds

 

[Pardoe84]

I got PSSD from Cymbalta (Duloxetin).
That's why i am here :(

 

[lachrymost]

I'm so sorry. I believe you.

Antidepressants ruined my life (in a different way), too, but it took a lot longer to really finish me off. I could have become a permanent zombie at fourteen, but fortunately I got more time. And while they stole my youthful energy, I wasn't anhedonic. I can't believe how much danger I was always in, going to doctors and psychiatrists.

They believe you're crazy now, but I really do think PSSD is about to become mainstream knowledge sometime in the next five to ten years. (There was a BBC documentary very recently.) It might come too late for you to see it, but... There might come a time they realize permanent or long-term anhedonia induced by antidepressants, as ironic as it is, is real.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Unless you know what triggers your mental problems any kind of meds and / or therapy is trial and error. That's a fact with all the risks coming with it. Psych meds try to change the brain chemistry but that's such a complex thing that is by far not even understood in its basics. I personally would reject any psych meds.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Unless I missed something, I find it a bit creepy to post a link to a suicide guide and ask OP if they can "get more of it" when they clearly stated they don't want to die and didn't ask for such information.

I'm sorry I didn't read OP completely, apologize. Please also edit your quote, I edited my post,. Again sorry it was my fault I didn't read OP clearly.

 

[d3c96524be95]

I'm sorry I didn't read OP completely, apologize. Please also edit your quote, I edited my post,. Again sorry it was my fault I didn't read OP clearly.

Thanks! I deleted my response.

 

[HAKMKS]

Hi, I'm new here. 8 months ago a hell of chronic pain started and my life has just went down from there. It has continued to get better or worse, and that was enough to survive.

2 weeks ago I took a very small dose of an antidepressant prescribed for chronic pain. And a list of horrible symptoms came overnight. My emotions have been completely shut, I can't feel love for my gf, I can't enjoy video games, I can't cry or laugh, and I can't listen to music. Something has completely fucked my brain up. I also akathisia ish symptoms, I can't relax or sit still for most of the time. I feel uncomfortable all the time. I did read about pssd stories before, but i was dumb enough to take 1 pill for nerve pain. If this doesn't go away, my life is a death sentence.

There is no reason to live without emotions. I have become a zombie from 1 fucking pill. Worst part is my parents and doctors do absolutely not believe this.

I really don't wanna die. Life can be so amazing. But there has to be a limit for what a person can go through. This time I've been forced to kill myself. Fuck my doctor for giving me this. Fuck the medical world that allows this.

I cant cry, laugh, feel joy or love, watch tv little and don't listen to music, too. It's from being tapered too fast from a benzo. Anhedonia and emotional blunting.

Yes, sounds like akathisia with the inability to sit still. Are you constantly pacing or moving?

My life was destroyed, too. Trying to get it back.

Doctors suck.

 

[Red_sleep]

I cant cry, laugh, feel joy or love, watch tv little and don't listen to music, too. It's from being tapered too fast from a benzo. Anhedonia and emotional blunting.

Yes, sounds like akathisia with the inability to sit still. Are you constantly pacing or moving?

My life was destroyed, too. Trying to get it back.

Doctors suck.

:(

That's exactly How i have it. I feel dead. Dopamine receptors are gone.

I have mild akathisia sometimes where it's hard to sit still. Also i Can never find comfort. I always feel uncomfortable.

Did you get any better? How Long you had it? What do you Think the chance of recovery is?

 

[HAKMKS]

:(

That's exactly How i have it. I feel dead. Dopamine receptors are gone.

I have mild akathisia sometimes where it's hard to sit still. Also i Can never find comfort. I always feel uncomfortable.

Did you get any better? How Long you had it? What do you Think the chance of recovery is?

It started in January when the fast taper went south and has gotten worse.

I think you just need to give it time.

Chris Paige who consults had aka from a benzo ct. He may be of help, but he costs like $125 for 45 minutes. He's in Florida.

There is a dr in the UK that understands AD, etc. Dr. Mark Horowitz. He is $250 for a consult.
Yes, I get that feeling of never feeling calm inside.

It's inner Akathesia, I believe. There is inner and outer.