Venting Another vent

[willitpass]

I feel like I'm going to explode. I cannot take this anymore. My life continues to look up and up, with more and more good things happening to me and yet I continue to feel worse and worse. I am ungrateful. I worry that I've burnt all of my friends out with my talking about my problems so I have stopped sharing problems with them to avoid losing the friendships altogether but it's eating me alive. Today I've woken up with an unspecified sense of impending doom and I don't know how to get the anxiety to die down. I want to self harm, I want to scream, I want to tell people in my life that I am suffering. But I know I will do none of those things. I will sit here in my own misery for another day. God I should just kill myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be awful what you are going through, I get that it's dreadful and tiring feeling trapped here. But anyway best wishes.