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ImpairedLowlife

ImpairedLowlife

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
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Last night, SuicideKurt took SN and died peacefully.
Her protocol was: approximately 16 hours of fasting, 30mg Metoclopramide 40 minutes before SN intake, 30mg Diazepam 8 minutes before SN. Exact amount of SN is unknown, but it's safe to assume it was a standard dose of 20 or 25g.

Here's a timeline and described symptoms:
00:04 - Drank SN, taste is awful, extremely salty
00:06 - Nothing so far, just some hearth palpitations
00:10 - Palpitations intensify
00:13 - Palpitations intensify even more, burps are occurring
00:15 - Slight gagging
00:20 - Pounding sensation in the temples, sweating
00:21 - Begins to experience brain fog, it becomes more difficult to think clearly
00:22 - Gagging sensation has stopped
00:23 - Breathing is fine, no suffocation, pounding sensation in the hands
(After that she started making typos, possibly due to the brain fog becoming stronger)
00:23 - No bad burning sensations in throat, the ears are pounding, feeling chills throughout the body
00:24 - Slight gagging again
00:24 - No pain or serious discomfort, ringing in the ears, want to get unconscious already, hoping everything will be okay
00:27 - Still conscious, whole body is pounding
00:28 - Still no suffocation
00:29 - Falling asleep, looks like it's the end.

After that, she never messaged or replied again. It was a peaceful death, may she rest in peace.
Sharing her symptoms was agreed with her and we're extremely grateful to her for such a detailed report.
 
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kurgan

kurgan

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RIP SuicideKurt 🙏
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

I’m going to die in 2026 (2006-2026) 🔜
Mar 15, 2025
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RIP hadn't seen any post from her in a while.
 
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decayingdoll

decayingdoll

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Sep 15, 2025
51
may she rest in peace :( 🤍
it sounds like she didn't vomit.. that seems quite peaceful. i've always been so terrified of vomiting and my ctb with SN is very soon
so that brings me a little comfort, since i do have 30g meto, no benzos however
 
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ImpairedLowlife

ImpairedLowlife

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
407
may she rest in peace :( 🤍
it sounds like she didn't vomit.. that seems quite peaceful. i've always been so terrified of vomiting and my ctb with SN is very soon
so that brings me a little comfort, since i do have 30g meto, no benzos however
Afaik benzos are mostly needed to overcome SI, not vomiting. Best of luck in your attempt, it also should be successful and painless.
 
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divinemistress87

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Im glad she didnt suffer much. Rip
 
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moonmuse

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after taking anti emenetic how long i hv to wait before taking sn
 
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TimingOut

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Sep 7, 2025
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Grateful for her contribution to us and wish her all the best. ❤️
 
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ImpairedLowlife

ImpairedLowlife

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
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after taking anti emenetic how long i hv to wait before taking sn
40 minutes in the standard time for domperidone and meto. Make sure to fast at least 12 or better closer to 24 hours too.
 
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capi

capi

Just a matter of time.
Nov 13, 2023
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It took her 30 mins to pass out? I wonder why. I hope she was at peace.
 
ImpairedLowlife

ImpairedLowlife

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Aug 3, 2020
407
It took her 30 mins to pass out? I wonder why. I hope she was at peace.
More likely 25. Seems like a common time for SN
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

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Jun 30, 2025
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Thank you. I hope she is released from all the pain and at peace now.
 
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Sep 30, 2025
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May she rest in peace. 🥀
 
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May she rest in peace ❤️
 
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Rest in peace
 
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Realgar

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I will see you on the other side Angel.
 
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TheEndIsPeace

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Sep 27, 2025
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May they rest in peace.
 
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Thanks for the report and the details shared.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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May she rest in peace. Thank you both for sharing this with us.
 
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Moonlight Roses

Moonlight Roses

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Dec 4, 2024
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Rest in peace! 💜💜💜 where could u get SN
 
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Leonszabs

Leonszabs

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Aug 12, 2025
109
Sad to hear about this, but I am hoping she is resting peacefully now.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Thank you for sharing, love and peace to you both.
 
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Sep 30, 2023
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May he rest in peace
 
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I'm glad to hear it went so easy and peaceful, may she rest in peace and find whatever she was seeking from this experience.
 
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Aug 26, 2024
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May she rest in peace. :heart:
 
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unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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I'm sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing it. Very informative. Did she take 30mg diazepam or 300mg 8 minutes before SN ? Because PPH says 600mg oxazepam is recommended and AI says 600mg oxazepam = 300mg diazepam. AI says diazepam's effects are faster than oxazepam.
 
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ImpairedLowlife

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
407
I'm sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing it. Very informative. Did she take 30mg diazepam or 300mg 8 minutes before SN ? Because PPH says 600mg oxazepam is recommended and AI says 600mg oxazepam = 300mg diazepam. AI says diazepam's effects are faster than oxazepam.
It was 30mg 8 min before SN
 
dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

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Aug 24, 2024
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Godspeed brave soul. I hope you are at eternal peace❤️
 
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