Another rant, anyone else hate the weekends and summer

[downndone2]

Anyone else hate the weekends, most all or every holiday, and the entire summer general?

It used to be my favorite time of year, but since obliterating my life it just makes me sick with memories. I feel like I've been in a prison that I sentenced myself to for life.

I lost my soul mate, fnances, friends, business, relationships with family changed, among other things after some REALLY shitty decisions I made a few years back.

Now I dont even want to feel the sun on my face, cant stand to hear the birds chirp, the crickets, etc. Like everything is a trigger that makes me anxious

On top of everything else, I'm in a ton of physical pain and starting to lose sight in my left eye.

And I acquired a roommate and all he does is drink in his room when he is here. I'm afraid I'm going to find him dead before I even have the chance to die

I want to just die. I want my shattered heart to just explode. I've somehow got to power through to March 2023 if I ctb. I just wish there were peaceful ways to go that wouldnt be tracked as a suicide.

Sorry, rant over...

 

[wellherewego]

well I hate all the time. On the weekend I can at least rest my body even if my mind is on fire, but it's on fire all the time.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I hate it too

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Anyone who drinks at home is a problem and a person to be avoided

Especially if they have children . I'm sorry you're stuck with that individual

Personally I like summer. I like winter if I don't have to go outside much. If I can look at It from the window it's tolerable and kinda cozy

 

[lofticries]

summer is making me so sleepy. and i already struggle with energy.

 

[Hollowman]

Yeah I hate it too. I work outside maybe I'll get lucky and die from a heat stroke.

 

[freedompass]

Yes, I think I have reverse SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Apparently, it is a thing. Online and even irl I've heard a ton of people say they dislike the heat of summer and enjoy clouds, rain and coolness. Yet the forecasters still persist in making like it's 'good news' that a heatwave is approaching! Wtf is wrong with these people! As for weekends and holidays yeah I can relate since I rarely have any plans while others meet up with friends and family so it can be lonely. If you can get rid of that room mate and get someone more uplifting, I would. I know what it's like living with a drunk, not fun.

 

[wellherewego]

The heat of the summer makes my anxiety spike and the darkness of the winter makes my depression spike i'm fucked either way

 

[downndone2]

Yes, I think I have reverse SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Apparently, it is a thing. Online and even irl I've heard a ton of people say they dislike the heat of summer and enjoy clouds, rain and coolness. Yet the forecasters still persist in making like it's 'good news' that a heatwave is approaching! Wtf is wrong with these people! As for weekends and holidays yeah I can relate since I rarely have any plans while others meet up with friends and family so it can be lonely. If you can get rid of that room mate and get someone more uplifting, I would. I know what it's like living with a drunk, not fun.

Agreed. Ironically I helped him out after he got out rehab following his drinking putting him in the hospital. Within 2 months he was drinking but made it another few months after without a drink. Now he spends all his days off drunk and passed out. He literally drinks to pass out and not be in reality. Suppose I'm somewhat envious, lol. But I certainly dont need to turn to drinking

Yeah I hate it too. I work outside maybe I'll get lucky and die from a heat stroke.

Oh my, is it hot where you live in the summer?

Is it summer already? Fuck, I slept for almost 2 months straight again!

Not officially, lol. But it sure feels like it is. June 21 is aways away

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

The heat of the summer makes my anxiety spike and the darkness of the winter makes my depression spike i'm fucked either way

Lol yeh in some hot climates the heat makes my anxiety spike. Also gives me nausea

 

[Bigpink]

I hate life all the time, weekend, summer whatever

 

[downndone2]

Lol yeh in some hot climates the heat makes my anxiety spike. Also gives me nausea

I stay indoors but the summer heat still makes m

I hate life all the time, weekend, summer whatever

Same, but this time of year is the worst 4 me

 

[Krieger]

The weekends just feel the same to me now. Everything feels the fucking same. I hate summer though because of the heat and all of the tourists.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, all times of the year are very depressing. Every day for me is just suffering. All that I want is to be gone, I do particularly dislike summer as I hate the warmer weather. I do not want anymore days or years, I want nothing to do with life at all. I'm sorry that you are in such an awful situation, it sounds unbearable. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[SpinsterHag]

The heat of the summer makes my anxiety spike and the darkness of the winter makes my depression spike i'm fucked either way

Me too.....

 

[dunedindwell]

Anyone else hate the weekends, most all or every holiday, and the entire summer general?

It used to be my favorite time of year, but since obliterating my life it just makes me sick with memories. I feel like I've been in a prison that I sentenced myself to for life.

I lost my soul mate, fnances, friends, business, relationships with family changed, among other things after some REALLY shitty decisions I made a few years back.

Now I dont even want to feel the sun on my face, cant stand to hear the birds chirp, the crickets, etc. Like everything is a trigger that makes me anxious

On top of everything else, I'm in a ton of physical pain and starting to lose sight in my left eye.

And I acquired a roommate and all he does is drink in his room when he is here. I'm afraid I'm going to find him dead before I even have the chance to die

I want to just die. I want my shattered heart to just explode. I've somehow got to power through to March 2023 if I ctb. I just wish there were peaceful ways to go that wouldnt be tracked

Anyone who drinks at home is a problem and a person to be avoided

Especially if they have children . I'm sorry you're stuck with that individual

Personally I like summer. I like winter if I don't have to go outside much. If I can look at It from the window it's tolerable and kinda cozy

I drink at home in my room, I don't behave boisterously or anything, but I do worry about the impression it makes on my flatmates... That it's unpleasant for them knowing I drink alone...

 

[downndone2]

To me, all times of the year are very depressing. Every day for me is just suffering. All that I want is to be gone, I do particularly dislike summer as I hate the warmer weather. I do not want anymore days or years, I want nothing to do with life at all. I'm sorry that you are in such an awful situation, it sounds unbearable. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

Same here, the summer weekends are the worst though