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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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The relief and smile on her face says it all. Rip.
 
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dead dav

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Feb 27, 2025
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That should be legal everywere what a peaceful way to die the smile says it all RIP
 
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poison tree
Oct 16, 2025
43
I'll just imagine that it was very peaceful, I don't think I could go to that website without spiralling into a breakdown
 
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vig919

The difficulty factor is disappointing
Oct 13, 2025
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I'll just imagine that it was very peaceful, I don't think I could go to that website without spiralling into a breakdown
Yeah...I already have stress about messing up.. And get a bit jealous when I hear about successes and go on a research binge. I really just need access to reliable help ctb.
 
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poison tree
Oct 16, 2025
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Yeah...I already have stress about messing up.. And get a bit jealous when I hear about successes and go on a research binge. I really just need access to reliable help ctb.
I meant the gore videos that'll be recommended, and the disgusting porn ads, but yeah that too.

for a couple years now I have had some measure of peace by "practicing" my ctb in a ritualistic way. I'd take a large amount of a prescription sleep meds (not DPH), setting up my bed and my glass of water, and then fighting the urge to fall asleep for as long as possible. once I literally can't stand anymore, I get into position in bed and take my "last" sip, and pretend that I am being faded from existence. it works for me since consciousness is actively being taken away from me, so I don't have to try anymore.

I started doing it because I saw videos, like I am assuming this one is, where someone peacefully passes in their bed, smiling. that's sort of my strategy for coping with how I can't die just yet.
 
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