Story Another lonely Friday night

[Suicide_vampire]

That is probably one of the last things in this world I would ever consider doing.
But, good luck to you!

I'll never do it, but that's the dream

 

[Epsilon0]

I'll never do it, but that's the dream

Veni vidi Vegas

 

[Suicide_vampire]

I came, I saw, I blew it

 

[FailingAtLife]

That's me too. Pretty good at advice but never listen to it. Yeah another sodding Friday night. I wish I could go out and prop up the bar somewhere.

What's stopping you?

 

[Jean4]

Yet another lonely Friday night, I'm tired of this recovery lark. I mean when do things ever get better. I keep struggling on and all I ever get is the same old situation. What's the point anymore.
I'm great when it comes to giving others advice, but myself I never seem to get there, the wave I ride is all troughs never peaks.
Just so tired

Hey... you have me and know that you are my favorite vampire!

 

[FailingAtLife]

The realisation that I'm completely stuck. If I'm not going to CTB, I know I will eventually end up hospitalized sooner or later anyway. Might as well get it over with. Main goal is to try some new medicines or ECT (that scares me, though).

I've heard ECT isn't as barbaric as it was decades ago; it has apparently helped numerous people and is worth considering if all else fails.

I'll never do it, but that's the dream

Same here, sadly...

 

[LittleJem]

I walked out of work sobbing and called the Samaritans. #helloweekend. I am alive only for my family, and how much longer will I endure. My Shakespeare of today is King Lear:

 

[Deleted member 1465]

What's stopping you?

Pretty much housebound for medical reasons and can't drink plus have to restrict fluids.

 

[FailingAtLife]

I walked out of work sobbing and called the Samaritans. #helloweekend. I am alive only for my family, and how much longer will I endure. My Shakespeare of today is King Lear:

Did you feel any better after calling the samaritans?

I've just never liked the idea of being spoken to via script, whenever I've called...

Pretty much housebound for medical reasons and can't drink plus have to restrict fluids.

You say "pretty much" housebound; you don't say that you CAN'T go out.

But yes, I forget that most people define going out for a drink as *having* to imbibe alcohol, which then moots the idea of going out simply for going out's sake. (I'm not fond of alcohol myself.)

 

[LittleJem]

Did you feel any better after calling the samaritans?

I've just never liked the idea of being spoken to via script, whenever..

Yes, some of them are really respectful and I need to tell someone how much I want to die every day. It calms me down. For the ones that want to help me "find joy", I just underline that I want to die and have a bigger rant. But some of them are just amazing and do just listen.

I am getting worse and worse, so I currently call them three times a day. It used to be just once. It helps me endure the suffering a bit more.

 

[CuddleHug]

They have no open beds at any of the psych wards, so they wanted me to stay with family until Monday and come back. They called my dad behind my back about this, but he knew I was here and tried to scare them a bit to see if they'd somehow conjure up a bed somewhere anyway. Also because he's out of town, and he knows I don't want to stay with my mum.

Well, it kind of worked, because now I got a tiny little room with a pathetic excuse of a bed to spend the night here at the psych ER or whatever it's called. They didn't trust me when I said I will promise to come back on Monday if they let me go home xD

 

[Steamm]

Worst part for me is when I have to go to the market and look everyone happy with your gf/parents

 

[Marktheghost]

Yeah I had a miserable, lonely Friday night too. And now I'm having a miserable, lonely Saturday.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

They have no open beds at any of the psych wards, so they wanted me to stay with family until Monday and come back. They called my dad behind my back about this, but he knew I was here and tried to scare them a bit to see if they'd somehow conjure up a bed somewhere anyway. Also because he's out of town, and he knows I don't want to stay with my mum.

Well, it kind of worked, because now I got a tiny little room with a pathetic excuse of a bed to spend the night here at the psych ER or whatever it's called. They didn't trust me when I said I will promise to come back on Monday if they let me go home xD

If this is what you want then that's good I guess. Just a thought: might it be a better idea to wait of you can to get a bed nearer home? Sometimes the ones that come up can be a long way away.

 

[CuddleHug]

If this is what you want then that's good I guess. Just a thought: might it be a better idea to wait of you can to get a bed nearer home? Sometimes the ones that come up can be a long way away.

I don't know what I want, I've kinda stopped caring. Anyway, they found me a bed in a ward I haven't been to before and it feels more like a hotel than a hospital almost. Got my own room, personal bathroom with shower, comfy armchair, big windows with a nice view. I'm absolutely flabbergasted. This doesn't feel real. Did I die?

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I don't know what I want, I've kinda stopped caring. Anyway, they found me a bed in a ward I haven't been to before and it feels more like a hotel than a hospital almost. Got my own room, personal bathroom with shower, comfy armchair, big windows with a nice view. I'm absolutely flabbergasted. This doesn't feel real. Did I die?

LOL that actually sounds okay Good luck.