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[Autumn_Stars]

I know that there was a thread about failed hypothermia. Tonight I am going to get wet and go outside (backyard) in my underwear and some alcohol. It is going to be 21 degrees. When this fails I have some cornhole bags coming on Sunday through Amazon and some ratchet ties on Monday. I was unable to get SN. I am tormented by mental illness and a decrease in intelligence due to my autoimmune disease. I have lost my well .paying job, coffee with my boss and friends, my car, my boyfriend, ability to write and draw. My bank says it will not wire funds to Dignitas. They won't take my check, Temple has not given me my medical records. Everything is two steps back. Dignitas won't take my check. My paypal isn't working and I can no longer figure it out. Nobody to help me who feels it is my God given right to die with what dignity I have left.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this terrible suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Autumn_Stars]

Funeral Cry thanks for being the only one to reach out. I used to be people's boss, and had many human connections. Here's an update. Amazon let me know on Monday there was a "problem" with the ratchet shipment. I am biting my nails. Today, refund with no explanation. SS is full of ratchet fails, I am walking down to the hardware store now and a uber to Home Depot if they don't have any. Please, someone take pity on me and give me a URL of a SN retailer here in the US. I am physically sick as well as depressed and I can't live like this any more. The ratchet debacle is a metonomy for my whole fucked up life.

 

[theater]

I'm so sorry you're struggling. Do you know about bitcoin? Perhaps you can use bitcoin to make a purchase instead of going through a bank?

I wish I could help, I don't know anything about SN though.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. It's clear that you've lost so much. Life can be so brutal. Is Dignitas a realistic prospect do you think? Had you entered into communication with them about your case? It's awful to see how desperate you feel, although it's entirely understandable.

 

[ThatRussianDude]

I know that there was a thread about failed hypothermia. Tonight I am going to get wet and go outside (backyard) in my underwear and some alcohol. It is going to be 21 degrees. When this fails I have some cornhole bags coming on Sunday through Amazon and some ratchet ties on Monday. I was unable to get SN. I am tormented by mental illness and a decrease in intelligence due to my autoimmune disease. I have lost my well .paying job, coffee with my boss and friends, my car, my boyfriend, ability to write and draw. My bank says it will not wire funds to Dignitas. They won't take my check, Temple has not given me my medical records. Everything is two steps back. Dignitas won't take my check. My paypal isn't working and I can no longer figure it out. Nobody to help me who feels it is my God given right to die with what dignity I have left.

Tell your bank to get lost and withdraw all they money from them. Then open a new account in a different bank.

 

[Autumn_Stars]

I'm so sorry. It's clear that you've lost so much. Life can be so brutal. Is Dignitas a realistic prospect do you think? Had you entered into communication with them about your case? It's awful to see how desperate you feel, although it's entirely understandable.

I have been in touch with Dignitas and have managed to get them the 300. They have my medical records but want proof of my tumefactive multiple sclerosis. Medication, prognosis, etc. I just contacted my neurologist. They also want me to get a phycologist.. And two trips to Switzerland. (!) I got my ratchet from the hardware store up the road. I am going to attempt this weekend.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have been in touch with Dignitas and have managed to get them the 300. They have my medical records but want proof of my tumefactive multiple sclerosis. Medication, prognosis, etc. I just contacted my neurologist. They also want me to get a phycologist.. And two trips to Switzerland. (!) I got my ratchet from the hardware store up the road. I am going to attempt this weekend.

I'm so sorry they are making you leap through all these hoops. TMS sounds terrible. I suppose they need all their paperwork in order but it just really pains me that people who are obviously struggling severely in life are then expected to go through all this for a dignified end.

I wonder if there are any charities that support people with this side of things. Collating the paperwork, chasing doctors for reports etc. I guess it's all highly confidential though. I don't blame you for feeling so fed up and impatient with the whole procedure. It's just so sad that people in your position are forced into feeling they have to take matters into their own hands.

I wouldn't entirely expect assisted suicide to be available to someone like me but those with a proven medical history of illness shouldn't be going through all this. I hope you're able to find peace one way or the other.