Story anhedonia is killing my last breaths

[YungWetto]

I wish someone would put me out of my damn misery.

Anhedonia hasn't let me do anything else for a few months, things I used to like to do: play games, even if alone, do arts and crafts, and the like. My social battery is over, I think forever.

I'm just waiting for the right moment for CTB. Here in Brazil they have the center for the valorization of life, which is basically useless.

The last thing I want when I'm at the end of my rope is to pour out my heart and trauma story to some stranger who responds with "You look like you're sad now. Have you tried breathing?" No, shit, I'm sad. They seem to serve a significant purpose for people who are not actually going to kill themselves.

I think they help some people; people who are not really suicidal, but want a comforting voice.

And they also help people who are experiencing a very acute, sometimes spontaneous, intense desire to commit suicide, who will benefit from being deterred and probably never be suicidal again or for a long time.

I'm broke and nothing cheers me up anymore, I'm smoking until I can't stand it anymore, hoping to get robbed and react so the robber kills me or something like that lol

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing here certainly is so dreadful and it's understandable just wishing to be free from everything, it's true that there's too much suffering in existing so I hope that you eventually find the freedom you wish for.

 

[love_peep]

i also too hope that i die will be soon i have more then 3 way ctb how can i do this on next week and maybe will be soon i need also to create here bye-bye thread. im so tired from this fucking live a have a depression and i dont wanna to play any games,or work, or just walking with friends, i dont wanna nothing , i just wanna die and nothing more.