Venting Angry

[willitpass]

I'm so bitter anymore. Years of mental illness have worn me down into a cynic. I get angry at everything. The weather not being right, my shipment coming after the date it said it would, having to do laundry, for people chewing too loud or dragging their feet when they walk. I get angry at myself. For being this way, for not trying hard enough, for trying too hard, for being lazy, for being too productive. I'm furious at myself for not being able to overcome SI. I'm filled with spite. I never used to be angry. I used to just be sad and numb. Now I'm sad and numb and angry.

 

[divinemistress36]

I feel this, anger is my primary emotion I'd rather be sad and numb then my not being able to control my anger outbursts

 

[Forever Sleep]

I know what you mean. I was always a pessimist which developed into cynicism but now it's become outright resentment. It's horrible to feel like this.

 

[KillingPain267]

I also easily get irritated now, fighting hard to control outbursts.