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regular john

Experienced
Dec 17, 2020
277
it probably doesnt make sense to ask questions about substances availability since he would immediately know the context. can i pretend to be somebody interested in his job even though i have never been interested at all before ? i remember he told me about propofol and michael jackson during one of the family parties.
 
Valky

Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
it probably doesnt make sense to ask questions about substances availability since he would immediately know the context. can i pretend to be somebody interested in his job even though i have never been interested at all before ? i remember he told me about propofol and michael jackson during one of the family parties.
Stupid question but why don't you just look it up?
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
it probably doesnt make sense to ask questions about substances availability since he would immediately know the context. can i pretend to be somebody interested in his job even though i have never been interested at all before ? i remember he told me about propofol and michael jackson during one of the family parties.
Why would you be asking? I would imagine he works with a slew of drugs with long names, and his response would sound like word salad.
 
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regular john

Experienced
Dec 17, 2020
277
i would like to ask because i am desparate. i am like many of us. i want to ctb but i am too scared of brutality of those methods
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,592
I don't think asking them is the correct route. It could just set off alarm bells in their mind and get them more suspicious of your intentions.
 
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MidnightCat

MidnightCat

Still 3 more lives to go.
Jan 1, 2023
317
There's no way he'll give you access to the chemicals he has... And if by any chance you managed to CTB using them...

You'll end that man's life and career...
 
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regular john

Experienced
Dec 17, 2020
277
true, i was born to this world genetically different and i hate how my impaired body works and i hate myself becase of that. i am imprisoned in disfunctional body. tomorrow im going to work and i will see again all those people born normal. I am neurodivergent and cant live with it
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
No anesthesiologist is going to steal drugs to help a family member commit suicide. First they will object on ethical grounds, and second they are likely to get caught. Anesthesiology is one of the most highly paid jobs in medicine, and it requires 12-14 years of education and training, so nobody wants to risk that kind of career.

Although anesthesiologists have relatively unfettered access to drugs in the hospital, those drugs are still carefully tracked. For example drugs like opioids are stored in electronically controlled dispensing cabinets similar to vending machines, and to obtain drugs the doctor has to do a fingerprint scan and enter a numeric code, then enter which patient is receiving the drug.
 
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AnotherSadDay

Member
Feb 1, 2025
51
None anesthesiologist is going to help you for that. The only way I can see possible this plan is to find some of those doctors that celebrities use to get their drugs, be a regular customer, etc.
 
finishLana

finishLana

Student
Dec 12, 2021
152
He isn't gonna help you ctb and you won't get drugs for it from him, realistically speaking. Is that what you want to ask about?
 
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Life'sA6itch

Lights out please
Oct 29, 2023
333
i would like to ask because i am desparate. i am like many of us. i want to ctb but i am too scared of brutality of those methods
I just want lights out too but this is not the way. It must be injected into your vein and you will be out before the lethal dose can be received unless you have a second person doing it.