Venting "And there was a knocking from down below"

[W3akCr3atur3]

There's an interesting Russian saying which roughly translates to "And when you thought things couldn't get any worse, there came a knocking sounds from down below". It describes a surprisingly bad event happening when you thought things couldn't get even worse.

And it just happened to me. My mental health had been fucked up since 2018 or so and it never truly got better. This year was bad enough already with mental breakdowns, loneliness, disappointment, you name it.
One night I decided to go out for a bike ride just to unwind. Long story short, I didn't notice steps, fell off the bike and broke my left elbow. Operation was successful and it's healing somewhat well, but I still can't completely bend or straighten my arm. And there's a decent chance I won't ever be able to. As well as putting it under any sort of pressure.
I hated my body and myself enough already and now I might be left with inferior arm which can't be put under any pressure and is pretty limited in movement.
If that happens, it might be enough to put me over the edge.

 

[cheaptrick]

As someone with a hideous, broken body I can relate to that feeling. The worst part is the scoffers who, like vultures, come to pick at you when you're weak.

I hope you have at least one person in your life you can be open and vulnerable with. Being truly isolated is hell.

 

[Passersby]

I can relate to these types of things you mention. Doing bad mentally, broken body and no hope. We are just stuck in a nightmare and are expected to just go on through life like everything is okay and blend in. It's horrible and we just want to escape.

 

[Csmith8827]

. We are just stuck in a nightmare and are expected to just go on through life like everything is okay and blend in. It's horrible and we just want to escape.

That is so true.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I think it sadly is the way this forces of the universe operate. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer, some must go down so that others can go up and once you start decsending its much easier for forces beyond out control to keep on accelerating us in a downward sprial, rather that to change and help us move in the opposite direction. Sure there are some flukes of nature where the tides change but thats usually an outlier. This is one of the reasons I hate this world and how it operates.