I don't know whether speaking my mind here is gonna help or nor, neither I am seeking any condolences from anyone because I have decided to CTB and nothing is gonna change that,
There is this girl , God I love her so much ,
We met when we were in high school , we started dating and it was beautiful, I don't know if it was love at that time because we were just kids , our relationship went for 2+ years and something happened maybe i did something maybe i didn't but it ended
after few years we connected again on social media i was working in Dubai that time and she lived in India , we started talking , with her it always felt like we are not doing this , universe wants us together, anyways after few chats and all , cut to when i came back to India , i went to meet her , we were so happy together, we started planning future, marriage, she even told her mother that she is gonna marry me
but damn me , I hid something from her , lied to her , I had lost my job in Dubai and I did not tell her , told her eventually but it was too late , she just kicked me out of her house and never wanted to see me again , me being me begged like anything but it never works we all know
Last june she called me , told me she wanted us to give us a second chance , I of course wanted it so didn't even had to think about it , we started taking again , last week i went to see her , we were together last weekend, spent time went out everything was great , or that's what i thought
after i left on monday, she stopped talking to me , she just told me it wouldn't work for her and she don't wanna talk
me being me again kept begging, kept calling but she became cold and blocked me from everywhere ,
I don't know what to do now , most of you will think i am stupid , its her decision and all but i can't live without her
It was her decision as well to live together, there are two people in a relationship not just one ,
I have ordered SN already and it will be reaching to me by 28th and the day it arrives will be my last , maybe in my subconscious I will be with here after death ,
There is this girl , God I love her so much ,
We met when we were in high school , we started dating and it was beautiful, I don't know if it was love at that time because we were just kids , our relationship went for 2+ years and something happened maybe i did something maybe i didn't but it ended
after few years we connected again on social media i was working in Dubai that time and she lived in India , we started talking , with her it always felt like we are not doing this , universe wants us together, anyways after few chats and all , cut to when i came back to India , i went to meet her , we were so happy together, we started planning future, marriage, she even told her mother that she is gonna marry me
but damn me , I hid something from her , lied to her , I had lost my job in Dubai and I did not tell her , told her eventually but it was too late , she just kicked me out of her house and never wanted to see me again , me being me begged like anything but it never works we all know
Last june she called me , told me she wanted us to give us a second chance , I of course wanted it so didn't even had to think about it , we started taking again , last week i went to see her , we were together last weekend, spent time went out everything was great , or that's what i thought
after i left on monday, she stopped talking to me , she just told me it wouldn't work for her and she don't wanna talk
me being me again kept begging, kept calling but she became cold and blocked me from everywhere ,
I don't know what to do now , most of you will think i am stupid , its her decision and all but i can't live without her
It was her decision as well to live together, there are two people in a relationship not just one ,
I have ordered SN already and it will be reaching to me by 28th and the day it arrives will be my last , maybe in my subconscious I will be with here after death ,
