And in death we truly are by ourselves, have any remembered before they were born. Lets not get it memorised

[Surai]

when you dont understand you tend to assume. And in assuming you comfort yourself. This world is getting worse. And worse and worse. It never was good. And suffering is the most redeeming quality. The world is built around suffering. Nature itself gives life through suffering. And in turn creates suffering. When life doesnt equal the weight of suffering. We lose meaning. And in losing meaning we lose ourselves. Because we are built upon our egos. And when we truly achieve ego death it is then we began to see. We are controlled by our own bodies and minds. We arent really free. Our bodies are our own prisons. Keeping us in here. In the cycle of natures suffering. Ever since we were born. We been born in biological animal. A meat flesh prison forcing us to feed it. And thoughts and even thoughts are not free entirely. dependant on our moods and chemical make up of our brains. Where animals become addicted to drugs where creativity is even increased. And enhancing ourselves and experiencing hallucinations so powerfull we feel we detach from our bodies. And maybe that is the goal. To detach from our bodies. To escape this prison. I could be typing this sentence and die tonight. We are truly by ourselves in this experience. You are truly by yourself in death. And we must face it ourselves. And in realising the truly lone experience, From nothing into a world where we began curious, and often turned resentfull, as it wasnt up to us we just were. Its just another step downward. into a funnel of smoke stretching upward. It doesnt even matter what words you put it in. It doesnt even matter. But I understand it. To feel good. So lets feel good. In the moment before the inevitable. Let us feel good in any way we can. in any way. So we dont have to think to much about it, let us forget. And if we remember, which we will, let us forget again. And again. And again. Why cant we forget for long enough. And forget. And pray and hope. And I pray and I hope. It isnt too bad. Because all I do is search out for any good. And the bad just seems to be the floor we stand on. And until that moment where we truly are alone. in that moment that may feel like forever. But if we never remembered. How could we remember what death had felt like. Like before we were born had you remembered? No, there was no memorising. I just so hope it isnt too bad. I just hope we dont get it memorised.
I truly wish the best. And maybe when they created it. In its almost ordered way. It just worked out. Had to experience a suffering unlike any other. When they had been always. And this is just the way it had to be. But I am the mind that is controlled. So even I may have it wrong. But I truly wish. But what good is a wish. When all there is. Just what is in front of me.

 

[Fabled Oblivion]

The mind is a prison no-one will ever understand people want to believe we are better than other animals but we really are the same, we have the same instincts they have and people don't want to accept it.
Humans look for meaning to believe we are better but we have biological programing like every animal and we only exist to continue our species existence.
I find it difficult to exist with other humans as they always pretend things are better and ignore all the problems of life and can be content when exposed with truth and act it ignorance as if we are any better in life that anything else.
Instincts tell us human to live and procreate but it doesn't make us better or life worth living, people can't understand that view and condem it with considering something difficult l.