gvmi
Losing my sanity, and scared
- Nov 9, 2023
- 40
It hurts just to feel this way, that every time I think about ending it, I feel like I'm just doing it for attention. And that's half of if, really. If I could press a button and just stop feeling this way, to stop being depressed, feeling this bad, I would. I really would.
Maybe I don't want to disappear, maybe I don't want to CTB, maybe I just want to get better.
I've been trying to go to therapists, psychiatrists even. None have even offered to help me. It hurts, it hurts looking for help, and nobody being there to hold your hand.
That's literally the reason why I fucking self-harm. I literally cut myself for attention, as a cry for help. I want to feel better, I want to get help. I don't know. I don't know what to do.
I just want to stop feeling bad and having this thought in the back of my head.
Maybe I don't want to disappear, maybe I don't want to CTB, maybe I just want to get better.
I've been trying to go to therapists, psychiatrists even. None have even offered to help me. It hurts, it hurts looking for help, and nobody being there to hold your hand.
That's literally the reason why I fucking self-harm. I literally cut myself for attention, as a cry for help. I want to feel better, I want to get help. I don't know. I don't know what to do.
I just want to stop feeling bad and having this thought in the back of my head.