
Railiah P
Member
- Nov 7, 2020
- 32
Personally I feel a lot of emotional pain but it’s mostly from my childhood. As an adult I distance myself from people and I’m always prepared for them to leave. I have had strained relationships with most of my family and I never truly made friends. Because of this, I don’t usually “Grieve” when people die. I was 20 when my mother died and I didn’t shed a tear. However, this year has been long... and very different. My husband’s Grandfather died of COVID this past weekend and my husband is on a business trip. He took it really hard when he first found out. He cried all weekend. I felt bad that he had to go through that alone. As the days go on he is getting back to normal but I feel really depressed and IDK why. I barely knew his grandfather. I can’t quite pin point why I’m feeling this way. I have literally been sleeping all day this week. Maybe I’ll feel better when he gets back in town this weekend. I’m just curious this doesn’t feel like my usual depressive episodes. It feels like something foreign, like I have no right or reason to be sad. But still I am.