Venting Am I a bad person for wanting to kill myself?

[OperationOblivion]

All I do is hurt other people. I've recently told some of my very close friends and family that I'm suicidal and hurting myself. For a time I was better, but I want to die again and I feel even worse as a result. I want to die but I worry that it'll only hurt them even more. I don't know what'd be worse, me hurting them unconsciously while I'm alive, or making the choice to kill myself and ruin traumatize them.

 

[failedmind]

You're not a bad person, you're in pain. Your last sentence speaks to me a lot. I have been planning to CTB for over 10 years, but the guilt of hurting my family has held me back. But I also know staying alive as the depressed suicidal family member hurts them too. Its a battle. But no, you're not a bad person for wanting to kill yourself. You're hurting, and I'm sorry that you are

 

[OperationOblivion]

Since my initial post I've thought more about living vs dying and I'm leaning more and more towards death. Recently I was diagnosed with major depression and I'm completely drowning in school work. I can't motivate myself at all anymore and am just becoming useless to myself and the people around me. I've been considering trying the night night method but I'm still weighing my options.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

In a world like the one we are currently in you'd be a bad person for not wanting to.

 

[fromange]

I'm learning about self compassion. Here's a video to consider.