Venting Always wondered if i'm an asshole if...

[Snuk]

If I'm jealous of people with worse lives than me. I've been having thoughts of wanting to ctb for a good amount of years now, but everyone with a similar mindset has had objectively worse lives than me. It makes me feel like a genuine asshole for wanting the same thing even if I don't deserve it.

I've talked to plenty of people with what I feel like is worse lives than me, you know... harder struggles or gone through even more difficult situations, I feel like I'd be looked down upon by everyone I know if I actually did commit to anything.


Then the thought of "it doesn't matter if nobody knows about my death. Nobody will care."
And then I start to loop back into me not deserving it.



Is this me struggling to find a good reason to?

 

[Enlighten]

If I'm jealous of people with worse lives than me. I've been having thoughts of wanting to ctb for a good amount of years now, but everyone with a similar mindset has had objectively worse lives than me. It makes me feel like a genuine asshole for wanting the same thing even if I don't deserve it.

I've talked to plenty of people with what I feel like is worse lives than me, you know... harder struggles or gone through even more difficult situations, I feel like I'd be looked down upon by everyone I know if I actually did commit to anything.


Then the thought of "it doesn't matter if nobody knows about my death. Nobody will care."
And then I start to loop back into me not deserving it.



Is this me struggling to find a good reason to?

There's kids in Africa eating dirt with dough who are happier than most here. Happiness is not necessarily related to wealth/fortune.
You shouldn't feel bad for feeling bad.

 

[ManByTheRiver]

If I'm jealous of people with worse lives than me. I've been having thoughts of wanting to ctb for a good amount of years now, but everyone with a similar mindset has had objectively worse lives than me. It makes me feel like a genuine asshole for wanting the same thing even if I don't deserve it.

I've talked to plenty of people with what I feel like is worse lives than me, you know... harder struggles or gone through even more difficult situations, I feel like I'd be looked down upon by everyone I know if I actually did commit to anything.


Then the thought of "it doesn't matter if nobody knows about my death. Nobody will care."
And then I start to loop back into me not deserving it.



Is this me struggling to find a good reason to?

Don't worry about it, I have an objectively great life. Still here.