Alright- this is it. It has to be. (My plan)

[SomethingsOff]

I got a plan now. A real one. A good one. If anyone has any suggestions at all please let me know. Plan is as follows:

-For personal reasons, I'm not doing it until August. I need money. Gotta save. Using cash for all transactions. I'm going to a gun shop near me and buying a Remington 870- lighter than a Mossberg- and hollow point bullets. Have a story if they ask that's believable. Answers to any questions they could ask.

-Booking a hotel room. Preferably one that takes cash so they can't charge my card for body cleanup. Tell them not to let anyone know I'm here if they ask for me.

-Cut myself up. My friends and some family have been scrutinizingly checking for self-harm on me. I haven't done it in a while. Cut up the other arm and anywhere else available until I don't want to anymore. The guilt of the relapse and fear of what the people I care about will do will give me the final push.

-Leave a sign to not open the door and just call the police if they hear a gunshot. And a tip for the housekeepers. A good one. This'll be at the last minute possible, probably late, so no one sees it early and stops me.

-Leave a note if I feel like it. I should. At least a little one. Aim for the cerebellum. Through the mouth. Pull the trigger- boom! Plan executed- and me.

Again- any feedback greatly appreciated. I'm done with half-assed attempts that only make me sick. This one has to work. And I'm ready.

 

[BxyBoi]

I got a plan now. A real one. A good one. If anyone has any suggestions at all please let me know. Plan is as follows:

-For personal reasons, I'm not doing it until August. I need money. Gotta save. Using cash for all transactions. I'm going to a gun shop near me and buying a Remington 870- lighter than a Mossberg- and hollow point bullets. Have a story if they ask that's believable. Answers to any questions they could ask.

-Booking a hotel room. Preferably one that takes cash so they can't charge my card for body cleanup. Tell them not to let anyone know I'm here if they ask for me.

-Cut myself up. My friends and some family have been scrutinizingly checking for self-harm on me. I haven't done it in a while. Cut up the other arm and anywhere else available until I don't want to anymore. The guilt of the relapse and fear of what the people I care about will do will give me the final push.

-Leave a sign to not open the door and just call the police if they hear a gunshot. And a tip for the housekeepers. A good one. This'll be at the last minute possible, probably late, so no one sees it early and stops me.

-Leave a note if I feel like it. I should. At least a little one. Aim for the cerebellum. Through the mouth. Pull the trigger- boom! Plan executed- and me.

Again- any feedback greatly appreciated. I'm done with half-assed attempts that only make me sick. This one has to work. And I'm ready.

They'll be calling the police anyway, cause a gunshot is a gunshot. Definitely solid with the tip, though curious about the card thing - I doubt they'll be charging your card for cleanup as that would be the state's issue, not theirs. And what if they try to? You're dead, you won't need the money. If you do it with a credit card that's also no biggie cause you could get like a $500 cap or something low to cover the room without being able for them to take a lot out. And debt does not get passed on. A little note would probably be reasonable, but definitely a sorry or thank you to the housekeepers.

Just also be prepared for the waiting period to get the gun - factor that into your timeline. But I mean... good luck.

(Hotel-wise maybe go for like a really bad one, one that isn't all that fancy, maybe like a motel or something you access each room from the street or something... you know the bad ones where they won't look twice for paying in cash. Also if no one knows you're there anyway, they won't be looking. Just turn off your location services and if you're worried park your vehicle a block away.)

 

[SomethingsOff]

They'll be calling the police anyway, cause a gunshot is a gunshot. Definitely solid with the tip, though curious about the card thing - I doubt they'll be charging your card for cleanup as that would be the state's issue, not theirs. And what if they try to? You're dead, you won't need the money. If you do it with a credit card that's also no biggie cause you could get like a $500 cap or something low to cover the room without being able for them to take a lot out. And debt does not get passed on. A little note would probably be reasonable, but definitely a sorry or thank you to the housekeepers.

Just also be prepared for the waiting period to get the gun - factor that into your timeline. But I mean... good luck.

(Hotel-wise maybe go for like a really bad one, one that isn't all that fancy, maybe like a motel or something you access each room from the street or something... you know the bad ones where they won't look twice for paying in cash. Also if no one knows you're there anyway, they won't be looking. Just turn off your location services and if you're worried park your vehicle a block away.)

Thanks! I'll definitely take the card into account. And the reason I don't want a low end one is because I did my research and in lower end hotels/motels they make the employees clean the mess rather than a professional service and I don't want those minimum-wage employees cleaning up my mess since they're not desensitized like most professionals are.
And yep, the waiting period is taken into account. I'm willing to wait.

 

[BxyBoi]

Thanks! I'll definitely take the card into account. And the reason I don't want a low end one is because I did my research and in lower end hotels/motels they make the employees clean the mess rather than a professional service and I don't want those minimum-wage employees cleaning up my mess since they're not desensitized like most professionals are.
And yep, the waiting period is taken into account. I'm willing to wait.

I didn't think there was much choice in that matter - if someone is dead, and there's blood everywhere (cause there will be), blood is biohazard and has to be cleaned. When the police investigate (because again, they will), their own team will be doing a lot of the work cause it's a "crime scene" and they need to keep it from being disturbed until they've properly ruled things out.

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You may be right, though it's illegal nonetheless. At least try to make sure a bullet wouldn't hit an unsuspecting person if it were to go through a wall or something (so like have your back to the outside or something).

It's going to be traumatizing enough. Don't make innocent honeymooners next door have a bullet in their room for it. You're already trying to minimize the damage (with the tip and all), just make sure you're covering everyone too, not just the immediate to the scene people. (Not with the tip but with damage control.)

I fully support this decision, I'm just tossing things out there to maybe try to keep it from directly affecting as many people as possible.

 

[SomethingsOff]

I didn't think there was much choice in that matter - if someone is dead, and there's blood everywhere (cause there will be), blood is biohazard and has to be cleaned. When the police investigate (because again, they will), their own team will be doing a lot of the work cause it's a "crime scene" and they need to keep it from being disturbed until they've properly ruled things out.

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You may be right, though it's illegal nonetheless. At least try to make sure a bullet wouldn't hit an unsuspecting person if it were to go through a wall or something (so like have your back to the outside or something).

It's going to be traumatizing enough. Don't make innocent honeymooners next door have a bullet in their room for it. You're already trying to minimize the damage (with the tip and all), just make sure you're covering everyone too, not just the immediate to the scene people. (Not with the tip but with damage control.)

I fully support this decision, I'm just tossing things out there to maybe try to keep it from directly affecting as many people as possible.

No yeah thanks- I'm trying to do that. I'll definitely see if I can get some sort of room thats at the end of the building, and if I can't, aim outside. Last thing I want us anyone who has to see seeing. Just making sure it's not a place where hotel employees would have to illegally clean me up to cut costs. I've read stuff on that. Thanks for your suggestions though- I appreciate it. :)

 

[Vizzy]

No yeah thanks- I'm trying to do that. I'll definitely see if I can get some sort of room thats at the end of the building, and if I can't, aim outside. Last thing I want us anyone who has to see seeing. Just making sure it's not a place where hotel employees would have to illegally clean me up to cut costs. I've read stuff on that. Thanks for your suggestions though- I appreciate it. :)

I would say go to some wooded area to do firearm method instead of a hotel. Safer to everyone, state will clean the place, no one is traumatized, if the firearm didn't kill right away it will give time to finish things as you are unconscious and pass away.

You can send a scheduled mail to your specific police department and family members with the right coordinates so they will find your body (send at least 10 mails so your mail will be noticed)

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you wish for.

 

[SomethingsOff]

I would say go to some wooded area to do firearm method instead of a hotel. Safer to everyone, state will clean the place, no one is traumatized, if the firearm didn't kill right away it will give time to finish things as you are unconscious and pass away.

You can send a scheduled mail to your specific police department and family members with the right coordinates so they will find your body (send at least 10 mails so your mail will be noticed)

That's not a bad idea- I just live in the great state of Arizona so there's not a lot of wooded areas here. I can't drive out super far either because the people I known would get suspicious if I was gone for more than a day, especially those who know my history- although I suppose it doesn't really matter if I plan to ctb anyways. I'll think about it. Thank you