Already dead

[broken soul]

I am so ready to be done with this world. I spend my days at work and the rest of my time is spent never leaving my couch. I am just here existing. I have given up on life completely. I lost hope in the kindness of humanity and I'm tired of fighting the battles in my mind. I just want it all to stop.

 

[Huntfish34]

I feel that same way quite often sadly,. Battling my Sick and fucked off mind. I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like I have already died as well, living a pointless, empty existence. I just want to be free from this life. I want nothing to do with living. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. I wish you the best.

 

[Onkyo74893]

I know how you feel. Random negative thoughts and bad past events from my life pop into my head often. Keeping busy with your work or things you enjoy can help, it focuses your mind elsewhere. Practicing mindfulness, keeping in the present instead of ruminating on the past or worrying about the future can help a lot.

 

[ashfall]

Same. I feel so detached from life, like I'm just playing a part rather than actually living. I'm constantly pretending to be happy, to be someone and something I'm not. It is so exhausting. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I don't enjoy anything anymore. Eating, watching tv, reading - all stuff I should enjoy and used to love just feel like pointless chores. Imagining surving another year never mind another 50-60 is torture. What's the actual point of anything? We're all going to die - I just want to skip life right to the end.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Also here just existing and surviving. Just wanting pass to time so I can finally ctb. Nothing's worth it anymore.

 

[Niirvana]

Also here just existing and surviving. Just wanting pass to time so I can finally ctb. Nothing's worth it anymore.

Feel same as you *hug*

 

[ellipse]

Same thing here.

 

[Nightmare Painting]

Been the same way my entire life. Just a endless repetition of numbness and suffering.

I'm even worse now since my dog passed away; I go outside maybe 10 minutes a day and barely speak a few sentences.

 

[Wrennie]

I am so ready to be done with this world. I spend my days at work and the rest of my time is spent never leaving my couch. I am just here existing. I have given up on life completely. I lost hope in the kindness of humanity and I'm tired of fighting the battles in my mind. I just want it all to stop.

Your struggle is my every day.
You're not alone, OP.
I know it doesn't eliminate the pain though.

Thread title reminded me of this song:

 

[meetapple]

I know how you feel. Random negative thoughts and bad past events from my life pop into my head often. Keeping busy with your work or things you enjoy can help, it focuses your mind elsewhere. Practicing mindfulness, keeping in the present instead of ruminating on the past or worrying about the future can help a lot.

I feel that the problem with this approach is what to do when you have no work to do. Yesterday, I took care of some financial work. While doing it I felt focused and not bothered by my thoughts. But when I was done I didn't know what to do. You can't keep working all the time.

 

[lonerclown666]

The pain will end soon for me i hope the pain end for you too

 

[1nhibition]

ya. 100% disconnected from reality at this point. all hope that saved me in the past is gone now and doubting itll ever come back. waiting for SN to arrive

 

[xLosthopex]

Me too. It's hell.

 

[Crazy4u]

same. No point doing crazy work and shit I don't care about. I look forward to CTB