TheHolySword
empty heart
- Nov 22, 2024
- 689
I was walking into work and a car paid no attention to me being in the middle of the crosswalk and almost ran me right the fuck over going what seemed like 50+mph. I know that probably wouldn't have killed me but the first thought I had was that I wish it hit me. I instinctually ran forward, that's the shit SI does to you. But I realized afterwards that I wasn't even scared, my brain instinctually just forced me to move. I wasn't scared to die or even be brutally hurt. I just felt so empty inside. Which is weird to say considering I used to be the kind of person that would have a panic attack over something like that. I dunno, nothing groundbreaking or revolutionary or all that exciting, just a near miss accident that made me feel nothing at all except wishing it would have killed me. Still nothing changes though. I went to work and came home and I'll do it all again tomorrow and every day until I die.
