Almost called a crisis helpline

[bigdog]

aRe yOu SaD ? tHeN dOnT bE sAD .

This hotline is completely ridiculous they just take people from general population as I understood I called them several times it is the same shit every time

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I have used a hotline, and although there wasn't any great advice given having someone to talk to did give me a chance to calm down and probably kept me from going through with that attempt. With that said I know it isn't this simple; I got away lucky giving them so much info and not suffering any consequences. Hospitalization is a real risk and you really just have to decide in the moment whether or no it's a risk you can take. It seems unfair that trying to talk to someone is so dangerous but it's the reality.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I have used a hotline, and although there wasn't any great advice given having someone to talk to did give me a chance to calm down and probably kept me from going through with that attempt. With that said I know it isn't this simple; I got away lucky giving them so much info and not suffering any consequences. Hospitalization is a real risk and you really just have to decide in the moment whether or no it's a risk you can take. It seems unfair that trying to talk to someone is so dangerous but it's the reality.

Yeah, you're right. I would have called just because I was desperate to not impulsively hurt myself.

 

[Joey]

aRe yOu SaD ? tHeN dOnT bE sAD .

Seeing comments like these always makes me laugh lol

 

[ihateliving]

I don't know which country you are in but I thought I'd share my experiences/limited knowledge of the crisis lines here in the UK in the hope that helps you at all....
The CMHT (community mental health team) crisis line calls are recorded & information can be passed onto any mental health professionals involved in your "care", but even when I was drinking alcohol & taking sleeping pills in preparation to CTB the only thing the woman did was suggest that I go home, take one of my sleeping pills, get a good nights sleep & wake up feeling better in the morning. (She also passed on incorrect information to my care coordinator the next day which still didn't get me hospitalised).
The Samaritans do not record any calls, & while they might call an ambulance in certain situations that is rare & they can't do so if you don't tell them where you are. They are more likely to try to encourage you to phone for an ambulance yourself.

So so true. It's practically impossible to be sectioned in the UK. I've come out of intensive care before and just been sent home. Many many other occasions where I have been close to death and just been sent home after an 'assessment' .
The mental health system here is shocking though. Part of me wishes they did just section me. Maybe I'd be back home and feeling better now? Who knows?
but it's too late now. made my decision and now ta time to go. This time I know how to do it properly thanks to this site

where are you from? Do they hospitalise people frequently there ?

 

[BitterlyAlive]

So so true. It's practically impossible to be sectioned in the UK. I've come out of intensive care before and just been sent home. Many many other occasions where I have been close to death and just been sent home after an 'assessment' .
The mental health system here is shocking though. Part of me wishes they did just section me. Maybe I'd be back home and feeling better now? Who knows?
but it's too late now. made my decision and now ta time to go. This time I know how to do it properly thanks to this site

where are you from? Do they hospitalise people frequently there ?

I'm in the US. Maybe I see it more because I sit suicidal people in a hospital, but it seems like it's very easy to hospitalize someone here. :/

 

[ihateliving]

I'm in the US. Maybe I see it more because I sit suicidal people in a hospital, but it seems like it's very easy to hospitalize someone here. :/

do you think it would be 100% bad if you were to be hospitalised?
I actually wish I was hospitalised so I can truely say I've tried everything. It's too late for that now. Just would have given me that extra evidence to prove to my family everything was tried but also maybe..just maybe.. it may have helped me feel better.
Guess I'll never know

 

[BitterlyAlive]

do you think it would be 100% bad if you were to be hospitalised?
I actually wish I was hospitalised so I can truely say I've tried everything. It's too late for that now. Just would have given me that extra evidence to prove to my family everything was tried but also maybe..just maybe.. it may have helped me feel better.
Guess I'll never know

At this rate, I really just consider it bad because of
• the shame
• gaining even more debt
• the possibility of losing my job

 

[DyingAlf]

do you think it would be 100% bad if you were to be hospitalised?
I actually wish I was hospitalised so I can truely say I've tried everything. It's too late for that now.

I totally understand why you wish that, but I was hospitalised (more than once but not every time I've ended up in A&E) & it's not like you might imagine.
Being hospitalised in the UK was traumatic and so very unhelpful for me. I'm doing everything that I can to avoid that happening again despite not having any improvement in my mental state.
My next attempt HAS to be successful.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

So so true. It's practically impossible to be sectioned in the UK. I've come out of intensive care before and just been sent home. Many many other occasions where I have been close to death and just been sent home after an 'assessment' .
The mental health system here is shocking though. Part of me wishes they did just section me. Maybe I'd be back home and feeling better now? Who knows?
but it's too late now. made my decision and now ta time to go. This time I know how to do it properly thanks to this site

where are you from? Do they hospitalise people frequently there ?

The healthcare system in the UK really, really sucks. I am so sorry you were failed by the system. You were trying to get help for years and did not get any. I hope you are at peace now, dear friend.

 

[Sarahlynn]

aRe yOu SaD ? tHeN dOnT bE sAD .

There is actually a specific subreddit for this, Thanks, I'm cured. Quite entertaining at times!

And OP, this forum exists to aid people who are feeling suicidal thoughts, whether they want to go through with it or want help to fix it. We are all here to get and give support. This must be one of the most wholesome places on the internet, and your thoughts and problems are just as valid as anyone elses here. Keep reaching out!

 

[sufferingalways]

I'm really sorry if my daily posts are annoying. I'm very lonely and this is about the only place I have left.

I just couldn't take it. I took some meds to try and sleep last night and still couldn't sleep for more than an hour at a time. I'd wake up anxious and then manage to fall back asleep, only for the cycle to repeat.

Today I guess the anxiety and sleep issues caught up again. I spent about six hours freaking out, crying, shaking. I didn't have anyone to talk to. I was having horrible intrusive thoughts that just wouldn't stop. I felt like I was losing my mind. I was so scared. Out of pure desperation, I almost called a crisis line. But I'm so afraid of being hospitalized, I couldn't bring myself to do it.

I feel so stupid. Yes, I want to kill myself. But I want to do it on my terms. I don't want to do it impulsively, I don't want to do it in a panic. The most I'll allow myself to do is self harm, and even then I try to keep it very controlled. But my mind kept telling me to take my SN, that I may as well do it now and I'm not serious if I won't do it now, and I couldn't stop ruminating about what a pathetic waste and burden I am. How it's only natural I have no one to turn to because who would want to waste their breath on me? It's horrible to be trapped in that spiral, panicking, and being unable to alleviate the pain.

I wonder if this is in part because I stopped my meds earlier this week... I was on Paxil, known for its nasty withdrawls, but I was on a 20mg dose for three weeks. Would it really be affecting me this badly?

I feel so stupid and annoying for posting this. At least I managed to keep myself from calling the crisis line, I guess...

Hi Im so sorry to hear that you're going through such pain. Ringing a crisis line is okay. Ive told them a few times yes I want to kill myself and they ask what brought me to this feeing, sometimes i have needed to hang up because ive got a dick on the line - strange that on rare occasion they aren't helpful, one asked me what's stopping you? I was dumbfounded. Sure thats not in their training.. another was so kind and funny had me laughing! So don't beat yourself up for reaching out. Its okay to not be feeling okay. Some of us have hidden disabilities that make life absolutely shitty. Im struggling with ctb thoughts every week now. Thanks to a landlord and now also person within these walls at "home"
I will be amazed if i make it to x mas. Hate the fake happiness of it. Sorry ive rambled. But I totally understand how you feel right now. Hug x

You're not annoying, absoloutely. We're always here for you, and I agree, this is the only community where people can truly understand you. I agree with everyone else though, SSRI are pure evil and I don't know how they can damage so many people yet be described so many times.
How are you today? :)

Hi, I remember a dr trying to get me on SSRI's but it have always been frightened by what they could do. After searching the web when i was prescribed one, I stopped after day 2. Threw them in the bin. Not sure why I was so dead set against them (maybe a pushy tone from a doctor ..) but it seems from reading others' accounts that I made the best decision.