Help All life ever does is get worse

[m3nhera]

(My mom caught me and my bf having sex)
I'd elaborate but it's all so stupid I just need to know I'm not alone and for someone to help me because I don't know what to do, if anything at all, I'm not in the mood to explain everything. This will sound silly but it's not funny when it happens to you. Nobody understands. Like seriously I know it sounds ridiculous to want to slit my wrists over this but nobody understands. And I hate my life. And life is pointless blah blah blah an edgy rant
Life is stupid

 

[yume_]

I don't think that's ridiculous. I think most people on here can agree that bad moments like that are when we want to sh the most.

I can't really help you ( I wish I could ), but I hope all this embarrassment and just bad feelings in general fade away for you.

 

[m3nhera]

I don't think that's ridiculous. I think most people on here can agree that bad moments like that are when we want to sh the most.

I can't really help you ( I wish I could ), but I hope all this embarrassment and just bad feelings in general fade away for you.

Thank you for being so empathetic, that makes me feel better actually. The people I've met here are so nice, I hate how this site is portrayed in the media. I feel like I belong here somewhat.

 

[pax420]

I walked in on my parents when I was about 10(talk about embarrassed!) then about 5 years later my mom returned the favor. I understand the incident but not really the emotions. But I think parents are usually resilient about most of the stuff kids do and go thru. Unless you are under 18, then it could be a problem. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed, it's just a thing. Please don't sh over it. She will forget about it and in time so will you. On the other hand I have a daughter who is 30 and if I walked in on her even now I believe I would kick the bf's butt.

 

[m3nhera]

I walked in on my parents when I was about 10(talk about embarrassed!) then about 5 years later my mom returned the favor. I understand the incident but not really the emotions. But I think parents are usually resilient about most of the stuff kids do and go thru. Unless you are under 18, then it could be a problem. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed, it's just a thing. Please don't sh over it. She will forget about it and in time so will you. On the other hand I have a daughter who is 30 and if I walked in on her even now I believe I would kick the bf's butt.

Why kick his butt I wish society wasn't such a pain in the ass about these things and purity culture has done irreparable damage. Sick of it all. Just my opinion though. Consensual sex isn't a bad thing and shouldn't be framed as such. I hate everything and everyone

 

[pax420]

Why kick his butt I wish society wasn't such a pain in the ass about these things and purity culture has done irreparable damage. Sick of it all. Just my opinion though. Consensual sex isn't a bad thing and shouldn't be framed as such. I hate everything and everyone

It was a joke. I have always let her do what she wanted to do and supported her decisions. I do not conform to societies norms and nothing about me is pure. I do agree with hating everything and everyone. Not a joke.

 

[m3nhera]

It was a joke. I have always let her do what she wanted to do and supported her decisions. I do not conform to societies norms and nothing about me is pure. I do agree with hating everything and everyone. Not a joke.

Hey sorry it went over my head and sorry if I sounded rude, I was in a bad mood due to unrelated things that happened today. Hope your day went well! You seem like a good dad, also glad to know I am not alone in hating everything and everyone.

 

[pax420]

Hey sorry it went over my head and sorry if I sounded rude, I was in a bad mood due to unrelated things that happened today. Hope your day went well! You seem like a good dad, also glad to know I am not alone in hating everything and everyone.

Thanks for your reply. I'm actually a bad dad and a worse person, but I'm trying. I didn't know about her until she was 18 and found me. Her mom lied to her her whole life and she finally figured it out. We talk pretty regularly but I guess it's not the same. I missed the start of her life. I was a pretty bad person my whole life. I hurt a lot of people and now I guess I'm paying for it. I'm trying to be a good person now, but it feels like I'm a fake person. I guess I'm pretty screwed I the head. I reply to threads trying to emphasize with people and try to be helpful but I m bad a talking and expressing myself. I'm sorry if I over stepped my boundaries, I just hate to hear young people having problems and sh their selves. When I was a lot younger I used to do it just to feel something. But I eventually learned to accept myself for who I was and made a hell of a life out of it. Now I'm trying to pay it back. And about to catch my bus in 30 more days and I don't want anybody on here mad at me. This is the only place I've found people who understand me and my screwed up head. I hope you have better days and find the peace you are needing.

 

[m3nhera]

Thanks for your reply. I'm actually a bad dad and a worse person, but I'm trying. I didn't know about her until she was 18 and found me. Her mom lied to her her whole life and she finally figured it out. We talk pretty regularly but I guess it's not the same. I missed the start of her life. I was a pretty bad person my whole life. I hurt a lot of people and now I guess I'm paying for it. I'm trying to be a good person now, but it feels like I'm a fake person. I guess I'm pretty screwed I the head. I reply to threads trying to emphasize with people and try to be helpful but I m bad a talking and expressing myself. I'm sorry if I over stepped my boundaries, I just hate to hear young people having problems and sh their selves. When I was a lot younger I used to do it just to feel something. But I eventually learned to accept myself for who I was and made a hell of a life out of it. Now I'm trying to pay it back. And about to catch my bus in 30 more days and I don't want anybody on here mad at me. This is the only place I've found people who understand me and my screwed up head. I hope you have better days and find the peace you are needing.

Don't worry you didn't overstep boundaries. I actually like hearing perspectives from people on here who have been around longer. Also, the fact you are trying to be a good person means you actually care. I am also fucked in the head and suck at talking. Also it's not your fault you weren't there for the start of your daughter's life if her mom lied to her. I have also done a lot of things I regret in life but all we can do is move forward. You seem like a decent person, hope you might stick around but if you really do ctb in 30 days I hope you find peace. Thanks for taking the time to reply to me. It always makes me feel better when someone replies to my posts. Makes me feel like people care.

 

[Misanthrope0000]

It's not funny at all, in my culture women actually get disowned or even killed for things like this so I totally understand

 

[m3nhera]

It's not funny at all, in my culture women actually get disowned or even killed for things like this so I totally understand

Right I could go on a whole rant about this and about how society is SO weird about women's pleasure, sex isn't a bad thing between two consenting adults and shouldn't be treated as such

 

[SDB]

(My mom caught me and my bf having sex)
I'd elaborate but it's all so stupid I just need to know I'm not alone and for someone to help me because I don't know what to do, if anything at all, I'm not in the mood to explain everything. This will sound silly but it's not funny when it happens to you. Nobody understands. Like seriously I know it sounds ridiculous to want to slit my wrists over this but nobody understands. And I hate my life. And life is pointless blah blah blah an edgy rant
Life is stupid

You want to CTB over this? You need to see what I'm dealing with

 

[m3nhera]

You want to CTB over this? You need to see what I'm dealing with

Not trying to turn it into a contest but believe me I've gone through way worse, it's just I want to die over every bad thing whether big or small, I thought most of us here were that way. I hope you don't think I only have an account because my mom caught me having sex I have a million bigger problems things just add up. I'm sorry for whatever you're dealing with.

 

[SDB]

Not trying to turn it into a contest but believe me I've gone through way worse, it's just I want to die over every bad thing whether big or small, I thought most of us here were that way. I hope you don't think I only have an account because my mom caught me having sex I have a million bigger problems things just add up. I'm sorry for whatever you're dealing with.

Ok well I was hoping that it was more than just getting caught. As embarrassing as it was I'm sure, it's not worth it on CTB. Some of the confessions I read on here and venting posts sound immature sometimes.

 

[m3nhera]

Ok well I was hoping that it was more than just getting caught. As embarrassing as it was I'm sure, it's not worth it on CTB. Some of the confessions I read on here and venting posts sound immature sometimes.

I'm aware, but I think we should give people some grace. 90% of the time people want to ctb over stuff that isn't that bad in the grand scheme of things they KNOW it's irrational and not worth dying over and not a big deal, but you can't control how you feel. If we could control that I think this site would barely have anyone lol. Mental illness will make you want to shoot yourself over the smallest inconvenience, also because of the brain being wired that way over time it gets harder and harder for it to stop jumping to suicide as the way out. I'm sure you know all this though, sorry if I overexplained lol. I don't know you but I do hope things get better for us both, and we find peace.