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DesireDeath
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- Feb 7, 2023
- 50
All I want in my reincarnated life is a face that is above 6/10 and no disabilities. If I had these two things, the world would have been my oyster and I could have achieved anything. Bonus points if my IQ is above average but not gifted and my height is at least average. Currently my IQ is probably a little above average and my height is average but my face is hideously deformed.
Despite many people online rating my face a 3 or 4/10 which is in itself ugly and awful, the sad fact is they are over-rating me and my face is realistically 0/10 IRL and definitely as far as women are concerned. People react to my face with disgust, contempt and avoid looking at me when I talk to them IRL. Nobody wants to be friends with someone as ugly as me and even in the cases I have shown my face online it has always accorded me low status and led people to avoid or treat me like a punching bag. IRL people also are completely disinterested in me and ostracize me solely based on looks. Social skills are no longer even a factor since I have learned how to act NT and people still treat me poorly the moment, they see my face. If I had been NT during childhood, I could have easily made friends and been popular since I was average to decent looking and tall and my peers thought I had potential but still bullied me for my lack of social skills.
Realistically, people here underestimate the importance of facial attractiveness on life quality, all I need is a better-looking face to live, even average is enough. However, my face is so hideously ugly even surgery can't save me. Currently surgical techniques are not advanced enough to save my face or even diagnose all the issues I have, so it's not even a matter of saving money, otherwise I'd be at least a little motivated to work and save. More importantly, I have already had surgery and it didn't improve me and I want my face to improve naturally, but this is impossible as I am 25 and far past puberty.
So far I have spent almost 10 years with an extremely ugly face and being treated poorly due to my appearance. At first I started off as significantly below average but it really became hideously deformed when I was 17 or 18, maybe 19 at the latest. Afterwards I got surgery at 22 and it didn't really improve except for a brief period of time where I underwent treatment for cystic acne, keloid scarring and fillers under my eyes, on the side of my eyes and my nasiolabial folds. Even after I still got looks of disgust from most women, though there may have been 2 who might have been interested, but this could just be an exaggeration and my own imagination. Nevertheless, the acne came back and the filler faded as usual, I also gained significant weight which I have lost a lot of, but it hasn't improved the way people treat me at all. I wonder if I can make it to 32 then I will have lived half my life as a normal looking person and the other half as a monstrously deformed freak.
I have encountered discrimination and negative treatment in jobs, negative looks from people and just plain shitty service from people. It's quite obvious society wants me dead and I often feel tempted to acquiesce. Nevertheless, I have decided to live a few more years for my parents but it doesn't seem things will get better. Even if I move to my native country I will still be far far below average in looks. There's absolutely no chance at a normal life being this ugly. It's quite ironic I could have contributed significantly to society, by working a high skill job, paying a shit ton of taxes, having kids, my own family and being a role model citizen, parent, and a friend to people. But nobody wants me just because my face is extremely hideously deformed looking, so my life is over.
Here's me mourning a life I never got to lead because puberty disfigured my face and now it's life over.
Despite many people online rating my face a 3 or 4/10 which is in itself ugly and awful, the sad fact is they are over-rating me and my face is realistically 0/10 IRL and definitely as far as women are concerned. People react to my face with disgust, contempt and avoid looking at me when I talk to them IRL. Nobody wants to be friends with someone as ugly as me and even in the cases I have shown my face online it has always accorded me low status and led people to avoid or treat me like a punching bag. IRL people also are completely disinterested in me and ostracize me solely based on looks. Social skills are no longer even a factor since I have learned how to act NT and people still treat me poorly the moment, they see my face. If I had been NT during childhood, I could have easily made friends and been popular since I was average to decent looking and tall and my peers thought I had potential but still bullied me for my lack of social skills.
Realistically, people here underestimate the importance of facial attractiveness on life quality, all I need is a better-looking face to live, even average is enough. However, my face is so hideously ugly even surgery can't save me. Currently surgical techniques are not advanced enough to save my face or even diagnose all the issues I have, so it's not even a matter of saving money, otherwise I'd be at least a little motivated to work and save. More importantly, I have already had surgery and it didn't improve me and I want my face to improve naturally, but this is impossible as I am 25 and far past puberty.
So far I have spent almost 10 years with an extremely ugly face and being treated poorly due to my appearance. At first I started off as significantly below average but it really became hideously deformed when I was 17 or 18, maybe 19 at the latest. Afterwards I got surgery at 22 and it didn't really improve except for a brief period of time where I underwent treatment for cystic acne, keloid scarring and fillers under my eyes, on the side of my eyes and my nasiolabial folds. Even after I still got looks of disgust from most women, though there may have been 2 who might have been interested, but this could just be an exaggeration and my own imagination. Nevertheless, the acne came back and the filler faded as usual, I also gained significant weight which I have lost a lot of, but it hasn't improved the way people treat me at all. I wonder if I can make it to 32 then I will have lived half my life as a normal looking person and the other half as a monstrously deformed freak.
I have encountered discrimination and negative treatment in jobs, negative looks from people and just plain shitty service from people. It's quite obvious society wants me dead and I often feel tempted to acquiesce. Nevertheless, I have decided to live a few more years for my parents but it doesn't seem things will get better. Even if I move to my native country I will still be far far below average in looks. There's absolutely no chance at a normal life being this ugly. It's quite ironic I could have contributed significantly to society, by working a high skill job, paying a shit ton of taxes, having kids, my own family and being a role model citizen, parent, and a friend to people. But nobody wants me just because my face is extremely hideously deformed looking, so my life is over.
Here's me mourning a life I never got to lead because puberty disfigured my face and now it's life over.
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