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DesireDeath

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Feb 7, 2023
50
All I want in my reincarnated life is a face that is above 6/10 and no disabilities. If I had these two things, the world would have been my oyster and I could have achieved anything. Bonus points if my IQ is above average but not gifted and my height is at least average. Currently my IQ is probably a little above average and my height is average but my face is hideously deformed.

Despite many people online rating my face a 3 or 4/10 which is in itself ugly and awful, the sad fact is they are over-rating me and my face is realistically 0/10 IRL and definitely as far as women are concerned. People react to my face with disgust, contempt and avoid looking at me when I talk to them IRL. Nobody wants to be friends with someone as ugly as me and even in the cases I have shown my face online it has always accorded me low status and led people to avoid or treat me like a punching bag. IRL people also are completely disinterested in me and ostracize me solely based on looks. Social skills are no longer even a factor since I have learned how to act NT and people still treat me poorly the moment, they see my face. If I had been NT during childhood, I could have easily made friends and been popular since I was average to decent looking and tall and my peers thought I had potential but still bullied me for my lack of social skills.

Realistically, people here underestimate the importance of facial attractiveness on life quality, all I need is a better-looking face to live, even average is enough. However, my face is so hideously ugly even surgery can't save me. Currently surgical techniques are not advanced enough to save my face or even diagnose all the issues I have, so it's not even a matter of saving money, otherwise I'd be at least a little motivated to work and save. More importantly, I have already had surgery and it didn't improve me and I want my face to improve naturally, but this is impossible as I am 25 and far past puberty.

So far I have spent almost 10 years with an extremely ugly face and being treated poorly due to my appearance. At first I started off as significantly below average but it really became hideously deformed when I was 17 or 18, maybe 19 at the latest. Afterwards I got surgery at 22 and it didn't really improve except for a brief period of time where I underwent treatment for cystic acne, keloid scarring and fillers under my eyes, on the side of my eyes and my nasiolabial folds. Even after I still got looks of disgust from most women, though there may have been 2 who might have been interested, but this could just be an exaggeration and my own imagination. Nevertheless, the acne came back and the filler faded as usual, I also gained significant weight which I have lost a lot of, but it hasn't improved the way people treat me at all. I wonder if I can make it to 32 then I will have lived half my life as a normal looking person and the other half as a monstrously deformed freak.

I have encountered discrimination and negative treatment in jobs, negative looks from people and just plain shitty service from people. It's quite obvious society wants me dead and I often feel tempted to acquiesce. Nevertheless, I have decided to live a few more years for my parents but it doesn't seem things will get better. Even if I move to my native country I will still be far far below average in looks. There's absolutely no chance at a normal life being this ugly. It's quite ironic I could have contributed significantly to society, by working a high skill job, paying a shit ton of taxes, having kids, my own family and being a role model citizen, parent, and a friend to people. But nobody wants me just because my face is extremely hideously deformed looking, so my life is over.

Here's me mourning a life I never got to lead because puberty disfigured my face and now it's life over.
 
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Pon

Wanna talk about videogames?
Feb 15, 2023
49
One of the worst, most underhanded concepts that society promotes today is that it is wrong to be honest to people in just about any type of relationship. It hurts more when you can clearly see that your colleagues are lying straight to your face in an attempt to not hurt your feelings. Why can't we just be more honest to each other and save us the trouble of realising how fake everything is?

I immigrated a while ago and the people in the country I moved to have clearly acted out of spite many times and tried to disguise it under a pretentious veil of politeness. You are not alone in feeling lied to and singled out, I believe there are many like me and you.
I am deeply sorry to hear about how much your deformity has impacted your chance at a normal life. If it was up to us to pick how we are brought into this world, nobody would have to suffer like this. We are here for you either way. I believe there is still hope for you, personally.
May you find peace!
 
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DesireDeath

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Feb 7, 2023
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One of the worst, most underhanded concepts that society promotes today is that it is wrong to be honest to people in just about any type of relationship. It hurts more when you can clearly see that your colleagues are lying straight to your face in an attempt to not hurt your feelings. Why can't we just be more honest to each other and save us the trouble of realising how fake everything is?
The problem is much worse than that. In recent years, the younger generation has become far more aware of how shallow and looks-based societal hierarchies are. The importance of facial attractiveness extends far beyond dating and attraction, it affects social status, how people regard your personality, even people's evaluation of your job performance, earnings factoring everything else out, how you are treated by the justice system and day to day life.

Jeremy Meeks is an extreme example of how having just an extremely good looking face can propel you to the very top of society even if you put in no effort to be a productive citizen and make all the wrong choices. The main issue is people don't care about lookism in the slightest, even unattractive people are willing to take punishment rather than fight against it, and since most people are within average range it doesn't affect them significantly. Nevertheless, even an average person is disadvantaged in life in relation to a good looking person, who benefits from the halo effect. This is something most people don't realize. People don't care about fighting against something that doesn't benefit them, because deep down nobody really has empathy and it's mostly a meme used for the manipulation of the vulnerable or to make themselves look good and deflect responsibility from their actions. But everyone, except those who are good looking, would benefit if lookism were to reduce and we had more of a meritocracy and a less shallow society. Unfortunately, this is impossible since humanity is full of narcissistic psychopathic pricks, this is the reason for all the suffering in this world.
I immigrated a while ago and the people in the country I moved to have clearly acted out of spite many times and tried to disguise it under a pretentious veil of politeness. You are not alone in feeling lied to and singled out, I believe there are many like me and you.
I am deeply sorry to hear about how much your deformity has impacted your chance at a normal life. If it was up to us to pick how we are brought into this world, nobody would have to suffer like this. We are here for you either way. I believe there is still hope for you, personally.
May you find peace!
Racism is still an issue and to some degree it intersects with lookism, but a good looking person of any ethnicity will not experience racism. Thank you for your sympathy. Unfortunately there's honestly no hope when it comes to living a decent quality of life due to my looks. Reincarnation is my only hope and I sincerely hope the universe gives me another shot at a better life.
 
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borderline-feline

Constantly Sleepy Catgirl
Dec 28, 2022
646
I absolutely get this. I would compare it to playing as a shit tier character in a video game, like Tofu Boy in Super Meat Boy. Having any success with a character like that requires godly skill that the vast majority of people don't have. Sometimes you just wanna go back to the character select screen to make the experience better.
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
Reincarnate me as a cis female with a decent appearance, and I'll give life my best shot.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,382
The unfortunate reality is that there is nothing fair about existing in this cruel world where chance determines everything and of course humans just make things worse with the way that they treat others. Both life itself and humans certainly are the problem, it's very understandable wishing that things were different for you but I personally really don't wish for any kind of reincarnation. The thought of such a thing is horrific to me.
 
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FadingFast2023

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Feb 11, 2023
53
Reincarnate me as a cis female with a decent appearance, and I'll give life my best shot.
After reading that other thread of how much abuse cis-females get... I decided I want to come back as a cis-male, God to be at the top of the food chain, that must be amazing.
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
After reading that other thread of how much abuse cis-females get... I decided I want to come back as a cis-male, God to be at the top of the food chain, that must be amazing.
Unless you're born with a micropenis, or are socially awkward, or autistic. Then you are pretty much treated as a lesser. And take it from someone who is a (white) male. life sucks for me. Probably because I am on the lower spectrum of them, but grass isn't always greener. The abuse that cis women get from men actually makes me hate being a male even more. I don't want to share a chromosome with people who treat women as trash.
 
alivefornow

alivefornow

thinking about it
Feb 6, 2023
191
I've never seen myself as attractive, due to being too skinny my entire life. However, I have an okay face, decent height at 5 ft 11 and good with conversation. I have managed to attract girls, some of which could be considered extremely attractive. I have even been in relationships and I know what's like to be loved by a girl. I'm still permanently suicidal. I do not wish to be reincarnated as a different person, I hope death is the definitive end to existence and to being.

Please understand that your feelings come from inside. Even if a girl loves you and that makes you whole, everything will fall apart when she's gone. And then you're at a worse place than you were before.

We might be more similar than you think. I feel like you're someone who places a lot of value in romantic relationships. I know I'm like that. I feel I can only have value if I have a woman, a beautiful, attractive one, that adores me. So what do you think it's worse, never having that or having it and losing it due to your own mistakes, due to being led by depression to saying horrible things and pushing them away?
 
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Undefined

genetic trash
Feb 21, 2020
18
no curse worse than ugliness, debilitating illnesses aside. my condolences. if it makes anyone reading through this thread feel better, i've dabbled in online ratings before and have been rated as 2/10 consistently. what a joke of an existence, honestly.
 
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RichardFirst

Specialist
Jan 16, 2021
382
Reincarnation, if it is real, is a terrifying idea. I do not want to come back to this world in any form. Indeed, what are the odds of being born into what will be a terrible life? I don't want to roll the dice.

For me, I want either oblivion or the peaceful rest of my dreams.
 
Ampsvx123

Ampsvx123

Student
Jul 10, 2018
128
If my lifework and craft cannot be eternal, I rather just have nothing. Ephemerality is the most pointless of vanities. Being human is a punishment reserved for the worse of sinners.
 

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