I've suffered for 23 years too long unfortunately, it's so terrible how humans procreate and impose all this meaningless suffering onto others even know there are no disadvantages to never existing at all. I wish I never existed more than anything, to exist is beyond undesirable in every way possible, it truly feels like I've existed here for such a long time and it terrifies me how this existence could potentially continue for decades longer. To have the ability to exist truly is such a futile, torturous burden, there's no point to existing.