I resigned from a long-term job end December and left my country in search of new employment because of what happened which also made me suicidal.  I was unemployed and stressing about it from January and only started working again in May, my money ran out completely and I started to struggle buying food.  If I could not find a job in time, my plan was to use the last of my money for SN.  Now, I've ordered SN with my first salary to make sure I have it in case needed.  Unemployment, or no income, could've been a contributing factor to ctb.  If I cannot support myself financially, then there is nobody who can help.