Afterlife, fear of death - help urgently needed! SI?

[crystalskies31]

Hi.

By means of introduction: I'm someone that's always been quite open to psychedelic ideas/afterlife and have had some trips/visions myself.

I'm thinking of CTB soon, and becoming increasingly anxious about it, losing sleep etc.

I've been staying up reading near death experiences and found something called 'prison planet' on Reddit.

Essentially, most of the things I read about the afterlife say that God/the Universe is benevolent and loving, so we don't fear death.
However, this Reddit (just as popular as the Near Death Experiences one) says that the "light" people see when we die, is a hoax. Only "gray aliens" await us at the end of it, who have created a field around Earth that zaps your soul into endless pointless reincarnations of suffering.

This genuinely really upset me. I had also hoped for eternal rest or sleep or at least some kind of 'going back to the source', but now this is making me fear death.

I also don't think I have time to read billions of books about this before I CTB. Again, I feel like it's "up to me" to "get it right", to somehow be in the mental state that I can get past the aliens and ascend properly, or whatever. I've also read different accounts, of some souls being reincarnated and others not.

I just don't know what to believe any more. If it's inevitable that this will happen anyway, maybe I should just accept that, no matter what, my soul will be trapped to reincarnate indefinitely (or whatever).

I really, really don't want my last moments and time on Earth to be so miserable, trying to take into account for everything like this and get it 'right'. I've not been sleeping well because of this.

I am also concerned that it's SI putting me off CTB-ing. I still want to go through with it.

Can anyone write with any help? Thank you.

Edit: these kinds of terrifying, paranoid thoughts are what is making me want to CTB in the first place. I just want it to end
Edit 2: being awake in the day seems to make a lot of these thoughts go away. It's at 3 am at night, spending constant hours (4+) scrolling Reddit on aliens that makes me feel terrified like I'm up for a whole lot of Hell when I die.

Then in the morning, it seems like it's ok, I can do this peacefully, to some nice music.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I think you'll be at peace when you pass away. You might get flashes of your life, which I'm sad for if you suffered a lot, but all things have an end.


Religions have persisted for thousands of years and tend to deal with the afterlife issue. I'm not religious but it's difficult to find a good primary source about the afterlife as there aren't many people that come back that we can ask. Generally reincarnation goes hand in hand with karma. Since you're a good person, I think you don't to have worry about that. I also believe that you take a little experience with you when you reincarnate, that's my personal opinion though, based on knowing things I shouldn't know when I was little and growing up.


Reddit doesn't know more than the rest of us, it's a good place for ideas but there are a lot of far-fetched ideas on there too. I don't believe in soul-sucking gray aliens, I'm already soulless so they messed up somewhere, I think I should complain to their manager.

 

[forgotten15]

I am in a similar situation.
I have decided to ctb soon because I can't take it anymore, but my SI is so strong. I have been so anxious lately thinking and worrying about afterlife and my fear of the unknown it's killing me.
I am stressed all the time thinking what will happen to me after I ctb. I am desperate really, I want these feelings to go away so I can end it in peace. Any advice on overcoming this situation would be much appreciated.

 

[houseofleaves]

Dude. Which prison planet? Which aliens? There's no soul for start. Only your conscience. It will be ok, dude. There's no magic aliens awaiting your soul, rest assured.

 

[FractalTears]

I don't believe this, we humans have come up with all sorts of scary stories, just look at most religions, they invented hell so they could squeeze more Money/taxes out of scared people. And if there were some aliens who would exploit us, it wouldn't make any difference if we stick to live or ctb, they would still have control over us ig? Really, stop browsing this Reddit sub.
Just look on yt about near death experiences, there aint any about these aliens, at least i haven't seen any.

 

[Samael96]

If you search on Youtube you'll find a lot of reincarnation testimonials, which i find amazing!
I get the fear of death and afterlife but i don't get the fear of reincarnation.

I think the worst part about death is dying, which means the moments right before and while dying that may or may not include pain, dark vision etc and that's because we are used to have all 5 senses working 24/7 and so it is only normal to fear not having eyes to see or ears to hear after our heart stops.

I think that after you put on the balance of life the worth of living or dying you'll overcome this sensation and you'll choose if to take the step and not be afraid.
In my case, living with what i have is worse than whatever may come after death.. the only "fear" i have is the pain during the moment and the darkening of my vision that would make my heart go crazy.. but other than that i really hope in reincarnation for example, and i just am crossing my fingers to get another life to enjoy and fight for.

 

[Idontmatter]

I've always believed your consciousness dies and you just no longer exist. I have been reading a little about reincarnation but not sure about it.

 

[Doombox]

We have no evidence of an afterlife, only the hallucinations of brains that almost died and were revived. If steeping your brain in this "prison planet" nonsense on Reddit is causing you to panic, there is a solution. I think any of us would get weird if we spent 4+ hours in the middle of the night scrolling that stuff.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not believe in any afterlife personally and there is no evidence that it even exists in the first place. I believe that when we die, we cease to exist. There is simply nothing after this. Death is true peace and freedom from all suffering. In my opinion, I do not think that it is a good idea to read about that kind of stuff. I can imagine that it must be awful having fears of an afterlife. I wish you the best.