
ge0rge
the satanic mechanic
- Jul 29, 2018
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I'll preface this by saying I'm not religious, just vaguely agnostic.
To me, the biggest anxiety ever when it comes to CTB is the possibility of reincarnation.
Hellfire I can deal with (provided it's metaphorical burning in regrets and sorrow and penance -- how are discarnate beings supposed to burn anyway?). The popular concept of a black void and an eternity of nothingness I really can't get behind, mostly because I feel that a black void becomes a black void only once it's observed, which presupposes some form of consciousness or identity. Nothingness doesn't make sense to me from a phenomenological/epistemological point of view, but I don't really have the philosophical vocabulary to describe it. I can feasibly imagine a boundless void but also some kind of perceiver of that void that is aware of itself.
What does make sense to me, what really terrifies me, is instant reincarnation. No karma, no cosmic leveling, just straight up closing your eyes in death and then opening in rebirth once you're out some woman's vagina, all in a heartbeat, starting it all over again, randomly. Existence has to continue itself. You wouldn't be you, as in a set of fixed experiences and emotions and cognitions, but a fresh new you that isn't aware of anything that's gone before. What if you're a woman born in China, or Afghanistan, or India? What if you're born in the midst of war or famine or some kind of calamity? What if it's all just randomness, someone bound for a lifetime of suffering? Now that's hellish.
To me, the biggest anxiety ever when it comes to CTB is the possibility of reincarnation.
Hellfire I can deal with (provided it's metaphorical burning in regrets and sorrow and penance -- how are discarnate beings supposed to burn anyway?). The popular concept of a black void and an eternity of nothingness I really can't get behind, mostly because I feel that a black void becomes a black void only once it's observed, which presupposes some form of consciousness or identity. Nothingness doesn't make sense to me from a phenomenological/epistemological point of view, but I don't really have the philosophical vocabulary to describe it. I can feasibly imagine a boundless void but also some kind of perceiver of that void that is aware of itself.
What does make sense to me, what really terrifies me, is instant reincarnation. No karma, no cosmic leveling, just straight up closing your eyes in death and then opening in rebirth once you're out some woman's vagina, all in a heartbeat, starting it all over again, randomly. Existence has to continue itself. You wouldn't be you, as in a set of fixed experiences and emotions and cognitions, but a fresh new you that isn't aware of anything that's gone before. What if you're a woman born in China, or Afghanistan, or India? What if you're born in the midst of war or famine or some kind of calamity? What if it's all just randomness, someone bound for a lifetime of suffering? Now that's hellish.