Strangely the opposite. Depending on how things go, when I do start my next attempt- I'm likely going to document it, even if nobody ends up seeing it. I don't know if I will be remembered to any significant extent, but I actually don't mind being remembered or being well-known post-death. Maybe I'll set some timer to post whatever I document to YT in the case of my eventual death, and just hope it takes off. I guess my end goal would be to just, educate people on the realities of mental illness and the processes behind it. Not sure as of now, but it's a thought.
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