Help afraid of waking up

[hmskms]

i was already put here against my will, what would suicide do other than bring me back (perhaps, somewhere potentially worse)?

life is such a failed promise that im genuinely concerned that theres no end to this torment. it's not like it has cared enough to keep me away from grim situations, instead trying to convince me that it's all my fault (instead of idk, maybe trying to comfort me? because i dont deserve it, right?)

i need help knowing how to feel about this. i really want to think life warrants a second chance, but unless there is an answer for all the shit that i had to go through, then i really dont want to wake up again.

 

[front of me]

The opposite feeling, I sleep and wake up every half hour

 

[SVEN]

You may find more reason to give life another chance in the Recovery section, perhaps. As there you can speak with others who can relate to how you are feeling better.
Best wishes.