Venting Afraid of thoughts

[BringMeToLife]

I came to the conclusion yesterday that I am afraid of my thoughts. I'm surprised it took me so long to understand this fact. Maybe I didn't think about it enough.
It seems I'll be all alone soon. Alone with my thoughts. They are quite unpredictable and I started to lose control of them. I am afraid of what ill-considered act they will make me do this time. I wonder what I will regret.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you have to endure and it's true that existing here in this world certainly can be torture. But anyway I wish you the best, there certainly is no real relief from suffering to be found as long as one exists here.

 

[endless_pain]

I feel you, when you loose control of your thoughts it is not an easy pill to swallow.
It is not easy to stay aware and live through the darkness. I hope the best for you by the way.