Hi all.
I know I'm new here, been lurking for a while and finally joined.
I'll give a short introduction. I've been suicidal since I was a child, and remember telling my kindergarten friends I wanted to die. I suffer from chronic pain that has no cure and has made my life a living hell.
Now, at the age of 22 I am ready to leave this sorry excuse of a life that I have.
I feel like I have a high chance of succeeding. I live alone, have no friends, my parents call me once a day and live pretty far.
I think I should mention that I have quite a lot of money that could go towards ctb. Some from work and some from my fat disability leave. The rest of my assets are already settled and I know where to donate them when I go.
So I wanted to ask, what methods will be of high probability to succeed? I thought of a few, and a fentanyl/ heroin od sounds peaceful, I just don't know how to get drugs. Street vendors are quite fishy and dark web sounds risky if I get caught.
SN seems ok, but I have no idea where to get it. In my country I only found 0.6% sn which I assume won't be enough.
I even thought about turning to dignitas, as I've heard they euthanized a person that had my condition, but it seems unlikely they'll accept me because of my poor mental health status.
Do you have any advice for me? On where to get SN, fent, heroin or any other methods I haven't discussed?
Thank you in advance. I wish you all to feel better soon, however you decide.
I know I'm new here, been lurking for a while and finally joined.
I'll give a short introduction. I've been suicidal since I was a child, and remember telling my kindergarten friends I wanted to die. I suffer from chronic pain that has no cure and has made my life a living hell.
Now, at the age of 22 I am ready to leave this sorry excuse of a life that I have.
I feel like I have a high chance of succeeding. I live alone, have no friends, my parents call me once a day and live pretty far.
I think I should mention that I have quite a lot of money that could go towards ctb. Some from work and some from my fat disability leave. The rest of my assets are already settled and I know where to donate them when I go.
So I wanted to ask, what methods will be of high probability to succeed? I thought of a few, and a fentanyl/ heroin od sounds peaceful, I just don't know how to get drugs. Street vendors are quite fishy and dark web sounds risky if I get caught.
SN seems ok, but I have no idea where to get it. In my country I only found 0.6% sn which I assume won't be enough.
I even thought about turning to dignitas, as I've heard they euthanized a person that had my condition, but it seems unlikely they'll accept me because of my poor mental health status.
Do you have any advice for me? On where to get SN, fent, heroin or any other methods I haven't discussed?
Thank you in advance. I wish you all to feel better soon, however you decide.
