lighthousekeeper

lighthousekeeper

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Jun 29, 2020
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I'm 19 and my parents don't fully trust me with money (honestly they're in the right lol)... I have a prepaid debit card through their bank so they can see where I'm purchasing from, I'm hardly ever allowed cash. I can't drive & live in an unwalkable small town so finding and meeting a dealer for N would be difficult, probably impossible. Does anyone have any advice or anything I may not have thought of, I'll take anything
 
Azzy69

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Im in a very similar position to you. Where i am from you can buy pre paid cards from grocery stores with cash (when ur allowed it) and they basically act like a throw away debit card with no connections. Ask ur parents if you can go to the store with them or something or get an uber etc. when allowed cash. U could also find someone to ctb with who already has everything and who can give u a lift. Just be safe. If u cant find any ways u may have to go with a more accessaible method. Good luck
 
schopenh

schopenh

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Oct 21, 2019
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How scientifically literate are your parents? I ordered SN and told my mother it was for cooking. I basically said it was the same as monosodium glutamate (msg). She didn't question it and when she asked why I never used it I said it was actually a bad batch and I threw it out, even though it was sitting at the back of my closet hidden.
 
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lighthousekeeper

lighthousekeeper

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How scientifically literate are your parents? I ordered SN and told my mother it was for cooking. I basically said it was the same as monosodium glutamate (msg). She didn't question it and when she asked why I never used it I said it was actually a bad batch and I threw it out, even though it was sitting at the back of my closet hidden.
My mom's a chemistry teacher and my dad's a doctor
 
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schopenh

schopenh

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Oct 21, 2019
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My mom's a chemistry teacher and my dad's a doctor
welp. Well I'll try think some more and if I've any ideas I'll let you know. You could play a long game and put away a couple of dollars here and there. SN isn't very expensive
 
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WhatIsMyLife

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QualityOfLife

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Dad's a doctor, mom's a chemistry teacher. That's incredibly unfortunate. Yes I chuckled.
Maybe I can make you laugh too. 4 years ago my mom died, 6 months later my wife of 14 years filed for divorce, just before the entire town of Paradise CA where we lived burned to the ground...I got a psychiatrist...saw him as two close mentors also died too young, I injured my back so badly it goes numb and hurts so much I would jump if there had been a place high enough, 4 neurologists have recommended brain surgery for shaking so much, my cognition (thinking) begin to fail so I was fired from a 27 year profession, the psychiatrist was writing for my social security disability, but then he died just before Covid broke out...My new psychiatrist says I am well, never had depression at all and, can return to work when no one will hire me anymore. I am going to be homeless and I was just hoping He or N was available in the U.S. We are told life is so valuable here that customs seize all tanks while our president orders people back to work so our economy can come back... Those people don't want to die with Covid and he can't figure out why?
I do and can't get pure He or N. Hope this makes you laugh a little.
 
GoodPersonEffed

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InaccessibleHour

InaccessibleHour

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Sep 1, 2018
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Posting because practically in the exact same spot. Although I could sneak out if I wanted to.
 
got2beFionaC

got2beFionaC

i am nobody. who are you? are you nobody, too?
Jul 1, 2020
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what about ordering from a site that has independent sellers? then the statement would have someone's name on it instead of a company. you could always say you order a necklace or something. or would they check the package to see what you ordered?
 
InaccessibleHour

InaccessibleHour

Student
Sep 1, 2018
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Their parents sound pretty bright, could probably look up the seller's names, see where they come from and what they sell.
This is assuming they don't check their packages which they probably do also if they monitor OP's finances.
 
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bigdog

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Jul 12, 2020
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Does it says in bank statement if you buy something from ebay the exact name of a product or it says only number of transaction?
 
Nymph

Nymph

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Jul 15, 2020
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You're in a really tough situation:(
How much cash are you allowed? You could send it to a post office for cash on delivery and then pay it there and it wouldn't say the name of the product
 
GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
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If you earn the money, then I would say it's time to claim your adult status and get your own bank account. But it sounds like they give you money, in which case they can decide to watch how you spend it.

N dealers aren't really a thing so you won't find one on the streets anyway.

All I can think of is to find a job and get some independence and autonomy. Otherwise you're still a kid, and your parents are still the parents of a kid. Doesn't sound like much fun for any of you, except for you in that they give you money when you're an adult. My parents didn't even do that when I was a kid, not even an allowance, so you're fortunate in that respect.

Since you're so closely watched, I'd advise that you need to think carefully about any attempt you make. If you fail, you'll end up in a psych ward, and when you get out, you'll be even more closely watched and life at home will be like a prison. If you think it already is one, you've haven't seen anything yet. So if there's any way that you can take the long view of things and start working on getting a job and moving out, that will give you something to occupy yourself with, will teach you skills you need for independence and responsibility, and at best you find you want to live and have the capability to manage life, at worst you still want to ctb but have the means to do it and don't need permission to do even the most basic things such as buying supplies.
 
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