Addicted to Pain and Suffering

[pole]

does anyone else like when they are in pain and suffering?

I like the feeling of heartbreak. I put myself in situations on purpose where I get used, tossed around and degraded. Where I then feel worthless and pathetic. I find pleasure in being humiliated and put down.

I love the feeling and emotional pain is something I chase and want to endure time and time again.

I believe it's called emotional masochism. Having an emotional attachment to your pain and participating in relationships or situations that you know will hurt you.

And no matter how horrible it is, I like it.

Does anyone else feel the same way?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I put myself in painful situations sometimes but only because I expose myself to other people (usually by caring about them) and I absolutely hate it. I suppose it's a form of self-sabotage, but not really, I avoid intentionally hurting myself most of the time and take cares not to do it in the future. Masochists enjoy pain inflicted on themselves whereas I hate it. In a sense we both chase pain that we've felt before. I chase happiness too so it's both extremes, I've never really felt happy except with certain people so pain is definitely easier to find out of the two.

There should be another word for this.

If I was into doctoral research I'd be looking for a way to solve physical and emotional pain for those that no longer wished to feel it.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Firstly, I think it's wonderful you can be so introspective & realistically look at your own situation almost from an omniscient point of view. The subject is interesting to me, because I have wondered the same thing. I don't believe I actually like being hurt, I just think personally it's been my life experience & just feels like the norm.
I do think it's possible to get something out of being hurt. I think I even know someone who seems to enjoy being hurt emotionally. I think it's important that you recognize this & the fact that your self aware enough to ponder this issue further is definitely a positive thing.
I would wonder where the feeling of being put down, hurt, left out etc came from? It probably sounds extremely unhealthy to do so, but I think that's mitigated by your own self awareness.
I have a friend who seems to choose to get hurt over & over & let's herself get hurt; actually goes so far as to put herself in positions where that's almost a guarantee. However she isn't at all aware of what she is doing and is also strung out on dope, so that compounds things.
But I have wondered about this, and thought I felt the same. However now I really believe that I don't like being hurt or feeling emotional pain, but rather have/am stuck in this loop of it & it almost feels normal.
I really hope my post is of some use & you can explore this issue further, hopefully coming to a conclusion about whether this is something that is good for you or not. I don't like seeing people get/be hurt, even if it's their desired outcome. Wish nothing but the best for you this new year. ~

 

[Conker]

Nah, can't say the same.. Although I do understand the language of violence and its value in an alchemist sense.

After all, they don't call it pain-ting for nothing. Maybe in a previous life I was addicted. Today though I'm at a crossroads, ready to end it all. There's not much attachments left for me. What remains is hanging by a thread.

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[Wrennie]

does anyone else like when they are in pain and suffering?

I like the feeling of heartbreak. I put myself in situations on purpose where I get used, tossed around and degraded. Where I then feel worthless and pathetic. I find pleasure in being humiliated and put down.

I love the feeling and emotional pain is something I chase and want to endure time and time again.

I believe it's called emotional masochism. Having an emotional attachment to your pain and participating in relationships or situations that you know will hurt you.

And no matter how horrible it is, I like it.

Does anyone else feel the same way?

I'm so conditioned to misery that the concept of 'contentment' feels foreign and deeply uncomfortable for me, and also unattainable due to my circumstances.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I dont like pain. I would avoid it at all costs. But I feel I have the worst luck in the world that no matter what I do or where I go, pain finds its way to me. Even now when I completely cut off myself from the rest of the world just to avoid pain, my pain from physical illness intensified x100 times than it used to be. If anything this shows me that God or the universe really has predestined me to experience pain with no path to relief. How amazing and just God is to create people just to make sure they are tortured their whole lives with absolutely no escape from it. I am very 'glad' that I was incarnated in this life to learn hard lessons that I should just live in absolute torture my whole life in away or another. It must be my past life deeds that put me in this shitty state. Such mentality is for sure to make me happy about how wonderful and beautiful life is. God is just. Samsara is just. You only fulfill your karma. Yay.

 

[LoveTakesManyForms]

I dont like pain. I would avoid it at all costs. But I feel I have the worst luck in the world that no matter what I do or where I go, pain finds its way to me. Even now when I completely cut off myself from the rest of the world just to avoid pain, my pain from physical illness intensified x100 times than it used to be. If anything this shows me that God or the universe really has predestined me to experience pain with no path to relief. How amazing and just God is to create people just to make sure they are tortured their whole lives with absolutely no escape from it. I am very 'glad' that I was incarnated in this life to learn hard lessons that I should just live in absolute torture my whole life in away or another. It must be my past life deeds that put me in this shitty state. Such mentality is for sure to make me happy about how wonderful and beautiful life is. God is just. Samsara is just. You only fulfill your karma. Yay.

I'm always perplexed about the whole "lesson learning" thing... what "lesson" does a person learn from being in pain? That they don't like being in pain? That pain sucks? That life is hard for some people? I knew all of that already.
I've never understood it, and as someone who doesn't believe in or want any kind of afterlife, when life becomes unbearably painful, there's no reason to continue living it, other than SI of course.