Addicted to Forum

[Roger]

I have become addicted to this forum. I spend far too much time here, it's just about all I do when I am not carrying out essential activities.
Strangely enough, despite the subject and despite all the rather odd and inappropriate posts and threads, it comforts me.

 

[Superfluous]

I'm the same. Don't have much else to do - just waiting for my time. Not long now.

 

[Roger]

I'm the same. Don't have much else to do - just waiting for my time. Not long now.

I am critical of my own determination to kill myself. I recognize that I am making excuses not to, and I despise myself for it.

I flirt with the idea, slip a noose around my neck and pull tight, knowing that I am not going to go through with it.

 

[Rukia]

I am addicted too...from the moment I registered...I have an axiety this site is going to be shut down so I plan to acquire as much information as possible...
I want to be in control...and have detailed knowledge about how to effectively end things...although I doubt I will do it anytime soon...

 

[deflagrat]

I have been addicted to this forum from the first day it opened. I used to read SS subreddit everyday, and now I read this one. English is not my first language and that's the reason why I don't post often but if I could I would.

 

[Roger]

I think I may leave my phone switched off and downstairs at night.

 

[Soul]

I spend a lot of time here too. It's the only place where most of us can discuss pretty important issues without anyone freaking out, and it's virtual contact with people who genuinely understand. So it doesn't seem strange to me that we get absorbed in the community ... but then, I don't get out much.

 

[WinterIsComing]

Me too like is the only place where I interact with people except from an app lol and you feel like understanded...and that red notification is adictive too.
Do anyone have problem sleeping and browse through the forum?

I wonder if that mean that many has an "adictive personality"...

 

[Weems]

Yeah, I spend pretty much all my time here too. I don't leave the house on days off anymore (work ends next week).

Suicide separates you from everything. Once you realize you're in your last days, all your experiences are just for you--nothing will ever come of them, they'll never be communicated. Except here! You guys get it, you listen.

 

[Superfluous]

Do anyone have problem sleeping and browse through the forum?

I have problems sleeping generally, but I do lose track of time whilst here and often still find myself on here at gone 3am.

 

[AutumnEmbers]

Me too like is the only place where I interact with people except from an app lol and you feel like understanded...and that red notification is adictive too.
Do anyone have problem sleeping and browse through the forum?

I wonder if that mean that many has an "adictive personality"...

Yeah, I keep telling myself I'm going to spend less time on here but I can't stop myself from constantly checking my notifications.
I'm an insomniac, so I'm often on here when I should be asleep. And when I should really be doing other, more productive things also lol. I've long thought that I have an addictive personality (though there seems to be some debate over whether there is such a thing).

As many of you have said, it's a great comfort to be able to interact with people who understand what we're going through. I agree with @Soul in that it makes complete sense we would all spend so much time here.

 

[Alchemist]

I wouldn't say I'm addicted, but it's truly the only place where I have found people who understand me.

 

[Robbyna]

This site keeps me calm. It's a haven for me. You all are so supportive and understanding. I wouldn't say I'm addicted, but I have gotten so much from the site that I'd be very sad if it were taken down for any reason.

 

[WinterIsComing]

Do anyone of you feel that talking with others is useless? I mean after being that much in the forum is like more easy to identify pro lifers or 0 empathy people

 

[BlueWidow]

I have become addicted to this forum. I spend far too much time here, it's just about all I do when I am not carrying out essential activities.

I hear you. My phone has been yelling at me recently and just this morning it sent me an alert telling me that my on screen time had gone up 58% for an average of eight hours, 1 minute per day. I'm a person who normally prides myself on not carrying my phone around with me everywhere I go and having to check it every two seconds, I have no social media accounts, and up to now the only thing I did was email and text —but this site has ruined me, RUINED ME. . . in a good way.
I used to check various news pages the first thing after I woke up to see if anything had happened in the night while I was asleep, many times before I even got out of bed.
Now my first stop is this site.

 

[MisanthropicLycan]

I am a newbie here and just became a registered member a few nights ago but I can easily see how depressed and suicidal people can quickly become addicted to this site. It is a comforting and kind community full of kindred suffering spirits to relate to. Misery loves company.

 

[CaptainT]

100%. It's weirdly calming and tranquil to be able to read and discuss such a taboo topic. Never found such a supportive group of people as this on a forum. It's liberating not having to carry around your silent thoughts in your head.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I have become addicted to this forum. I spend far too much time here, it's just about all I do when I am not carrying out essential activities.
Strangely enough, despite the subject and despite all the rather odd and inappropriate posts and threads, it comforts me.

This website and reading books are about the only 2 good addictions out there. TV, youtube ,facebook are bad addictions.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I am critical of my own determination to kill myself. I recognize that I am making excuses not to, and I despise myself for it.

I flirt with the idea, slip a noose around my neck and pull tight, knowing that I am not going to go through with it.

I did the same-daily-for hours- for weeks...obvs coming to the conclusion that I cant do that method-some people seem comfortable with this way- but for me-well- it actually blows my mind when I read about anyone that does it-i think i didnt 'go for it' enough when I was feelin v.distaught & impulsive, now I am just feeling v.distraught-but I cant seen to harness that feeling of impulsivity- and now (as I am sure is evident in what I am saying) I have over thought it to such an extent-that it seems impossible now! Annoyed at myself for not seeing through those initial feelings- I nearly did it-but due to my set up-I 'saved' myself in time!

 

[CrushedHopes]

I spend a lot of time here, but I also do different things to help me pass the time. Won't be long now until I depart.

 

[metalchic_74]

Omg same here! I'm thankful I found this site. I had never heard of SN as a method.

 

[CrushedHopes]

Omg same here! I'm thankful I found this site. I had never heard of SN as a method.

Honestly, same. If I had never found SS, I would have never learnt of SN. Wouldn't even know that it is a peaceful way to pass on.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I just can't help myself. If I don't come on here, I feel like I'm missing something.

 

[Squiddy]

I've also become addicted to this forum. It's really relatable

 

[Woodnote]

I've become addicted to it as well. I found this website a year ago but it took me a long time to make an account. I really wish I would've joined sooner.

 

[Numbtopain97]

Same here

 

[noctiva]

Same here. I have nothing and no one else in my life.

 

[Kodama]

Same here ... Not sure if it's good or not for my mental / mindset

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

I sometimes find it distressing. The reality is hitting home i guess. Goodbye threads make me feel it a lot, this pit in my belly. I understand how it feels like an addiction, i think about whats happening on here even when im out of the house or watching a movie.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Same. I don't use Facebook and Instagram anymore. Now this is my place.