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Hateyouprolife
Survivalist
- Sep 4, 2021
- 169
Tried this method. About 23h ago!
I cannot describe exactly in which state I was during attempt. More than likely in delirium. But I wasnt drunk.
It took so long to just tie hangmsns noose. Then struggled to pour 800ml conc citric acid into same bottle. It took maybr 15 min. Then added my last notes to diary. There were added 1.33am, 1.38am and last one soon after. I recall just dropping full bottle out of my hand so half acid went to floor
Poured 1kg of soda into bag and also bottle of acid. Now put bottle inside bag. Struggled to put rope around bag. Tightened hangmans knot. Lied down. Pushed the bottle over...
Remember feeling: I will not back up, no matter what. I breathed fast and felt anxiety altrough a distant. I wasnt there anymore. Maybe I drifted in and out of consciousness. I am not sure did i pass out from gas or something else.
5.26bam woke. Felt nauseus as I had tried to inhale pool water before, just to test my instincts. I wasnylt fully awake, but I immideately wanted to remove evidence.
I was really grateful to wake up, but had I tied my hands to body as I planned I couldnt have told this story. Do I regret it? No, it changed me, my personality, my happiness, my attitude. Glad I didnt end up in brain damage.
But what saved me exept guardian angel? Convulsions! Discovered marks on my head, chest and wall. Sad that even if anyone had heard me hitting wall, they couldnt have saved me since door was completely blocked...
You wont believe how happty now living feels. Hope someone now reconsiders living, but if you are really good to go, then plan 2 weeks ahead. Do everything you have always wanted. Lose your inhibitions. You may have chance thst this 2 weeks convinces you to carry on living.
I cannot describe exactly in which state I was during attempt. More than likely in delirium. But I wasnt drunk.
It took so long to just tie hangmsns noose. Then struggled to pour 800ml conc citric acid into same bottle. It took maybr 15 min. Then added my last notes to diary. There were added 1.33am, 1.38am and last one soon after. I recall just dropping full bottle out of my hand so half acid went to floor
Poured 1kg of soda into bag and also bottle of acid. Now put bottle inside bag. Struggled to put rope around bag. Tightened hangmans knot. Lied down. Pushed the bottle over...
Remember feeling: I will not back up, no matter what. I breathed fast and felt anxiety altrough a distant. I wasnt there anymore. Maybe I drifted in and out of consciousness. I am not sure did i pass out from gas or something else.
5.26bam woke. Felt nauseus as I had tried to inhale pool water before, just to test my instincts. I wasnylt fully awake, but I immideately wanted to remove evidence.
I was really grateful to wake up, but had I tied my hands to body as I planned I couldnt have told this story. Do I regret it? No, it changed me, my personality, my happiness, my attitude. Glad I didnt end up in brain damage.
But what saved me exept guardian angel? Convulsions! Discovered marks on my head, chest and wall. Sad that even if anyone had heard me hitting wall, they couldnt have saved me since door was completely blocked...
You wont believe how happty now living feels. Hope someone now reconsiders living, but if you are really good to go, then plan 2 weeks ahead. Do everything you have always wanted. Lose your inhibitions. You may have chance thst this 2 weeks convinces you to carry on living.