access to guns but don't wanna ctb with them

[bridge-walking]

i live in a state with easy access to guns and ammo. i actually own many guns that would allow me to ctb. i just don't want to use them because my whole life ive been a responsible gun owner and user and this goes against that. i also dont want to add to the statistic of one more person using a gun to ctb and then politics taking that and saying see guns shouldnt be in peoples hands. dumb i know but using one of these guns is a last effort.

still unsure of what other method to use. hopefully i find one that suits me sometime soon. trying to find a method that looks like an accident or doesnt cause a bunch of distress for the person that finds me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find what you search for, best wishes.

 

[bridge-walking]

I hope that you eventually find what you search for, best wishes.

ty. i will be married to peace soon + not these thoughts anymore. thats a good feeling knowing that :] :]