Accepting the possible pain of CTB

[Legacy Install]

Has anyone ever thought that with so many limited sure-fire options that some of us might just have to accept the possible pain if we really want to CTB?

I was thinking about how even when I had my 12-gauge I still would get people arguing that it's not 100% even with a 15-pellet 00 Buckshot loadout and I had this dream where things aligned in such a way that I just started stabbing myself until I was dead. It was a great dream an amazing one that made me question why I was even bothering with work today and it's partially why I'm thinking of this.

My life is truly destroyed and my abusers have shattered the illusion of pointless persistence for external values. I have been left with nothing and no one. Maybe I should thank my rapists for that since even before they ganged up on me for the past few years I still wanted to CTB.

It's a cruel world, but does a life of madness really eclipse what might be a moment of pain.?

Yes, we could all become bed-chained produce, but maybe that's a risk worth taking.

There are high-speed trains and parking garages near me and I'm certain I could get another cheap single-shotty I even have the ammo.

Apologies for this unfocused ramble meant to be a quick question, it just feels like my soul is about to be ripped from this body of mine in a way.

 

[Bishop]

It might not just be a moment of pain. No method has a 100% lethality rate. Even firearms have survivors. So one could end up worse than before. But that's the decision one has to make on their own.

 

[Legacy Install]

It might not just be a moment of pain. No method has a 100% lethality rate. Even firearms have survivors. So one could end up worse than before. But that's the decision one has to make on their own.

Exactly.

That was my reference to possibly ending up a bed bound vegetable, but also a disfigured survivor.