absolutely Devastated

[atdeathsdoor]

so I have come to the conclusion....i have to ride this so called LIFE out...I only have my dad who's in his 70's and my children (who are slowly drifting away from me as there growing older) am gutted to say the least that my life can't end how I want it to as I don't have the balls to follow through with it...I just wanna die naturally or even catch some killer disease (sorry to the people who have 1) I just don't wanna look a coward if that makes sense....in debt to my eye balls been trying to get a new job for years with no luck my future does not look good....to top it all off i dont have many friends and that gets me down even more when its hot weather and i have no where to go and nobody to go see....just let me die GOD ffs pleassseeeeee

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

You know completing ctb is a very personal thing and you should only do it if you want to and not because of anyone else.

Whatever decision you decide to take should be only be made by you and sorely for you. I would exchange life with those who have desire to live but have terminal diseases if I could because that's how much I despise living.

 

[FuneralCry]

I will never understand why people who hate existing create even more suffering by forcing life into this world, but I do understand that it's awful feeling trapped in this hellish existence, if you saying that those who ctb are "cowardly" then that's just wrong though, in fact it's perfectly logical wanting to escape from unnecessary suffering, the true irrational thing is wanting to delay the inevitable in such a harmful world. I wish that suicide is easier and it really should be, I certainly envy those who are finally not existing as they are free from everything and are now unable to suffer for all eternity.