About to attempt partial hanging now

[dylankleboldlover]

If this works, I love you, Ben. I'm really sorry. I wanted to marry you. I'm so sorry, Beni, please pet your cat for me. When you fawn your hair out or listen to Weezer, please think of me. You will never see this post but I scheduled text messages to be sent tomorrow long after I'm gone.

Nobody here knows who I am or cares about me but I am a girl who lived on Earth for 19 years with the bestest friends ever and the bestest boyfriend ever.

I'm really going to miss my dog. I'm never gonna see my dog again.

I hope this doesn't hurt. I'm scared

 

[Avril]

I used to be a Columbiner like you. I look back with regret. I hated the world. Still do. While I won't say it gets better, there is no shame in backing out if you feel hesitant, if you need more days to plan CTB, we're here to help you. Plus, you seem new. You should get acquainted with the community a while.

 

[AmataBlank]

bruh a "columbiner" whatheefuccckkk

 

[dylankleboldlover]

I used to be a Columbiner like you. I hated the world. Still do. While I won't say it gets better, there is no shame in backing out if you feel hesitant, if you need more days to plan CTB, we're here to help you. Plus, you seem new. You should get acquainted with the community a while.

Hi, Avril. Your name is beautiful. I'm not really a Columbiner anymore, I left the tcc months ago and have grown out of it. I just joined this site on a whim and since I don't really have any interests right now, I chose this bc I didn't know what else to make it lol. A part of me does love Dylan, though. Not in the idolizing way. Just feel connected to him for personal reasons idk. I joined yesterday. I feel like I need to kill myself tonight because after tomorrow night I become homeless. Also my best friend just told me earlier today she hopes I kill myself. So that kind of set me off. I just need advice on how to do this, for some reason people on my other thread are saying that this sounds impulsive of me and to wait on it. But I have wanted to CTB for years, this isn't impulsive, and i have always wanted to d1e by my own hands, not nature or something else. This will be my third attempt within two years. I don't need people telling me to think about this. I have. I just need help and advice.

 

[hang in there]

Hi, Avril. Your name is beautiful. I'm not really a Columbiner anymore, I left the tcc months ago and have grown out of it. I just joined this site on a whim and since I don't really have any interests right now, I chose this bc I didn't know what else to make it lol. A part of me does love Dylan, though. Not in the idolizing way. Just feel connected to him for personal reasons idk. I joined yesterday. I feel like I need to kill myself tonight because after tomorrow night I become homeless. Also my best friend just told me earlier today she hopes I kill myself. So that kind of set me off. I just need advice on how to do this, for some reason people on my other thread are saying that this sounds impulsive of me and to wait on it. But I have wanted to CTB for years, this isn't impulsive, and i have always wanted to d1e by my own hands, not nature or something else. This will be my third attempt within two years. I don't need people telling me to think about this. I have. I just need help and advice.

I think they mean impulsive regarding your method. It doesn't sound like you've thought very hard about this and with lack of knowledge comes very serious mistakes and suffering. It would probably a better idea to do more research before using a method with such high failure rate but good luck to you regardless.

 

[Avril]

Hi, Avril. Your name is beautiful. I'm not really a Columbiner anymore, I left the tcc months ago and have grown out of it. I just joined this site on a whim and since I don't really have any interests right now, I chose this bc I didn't know what else to make it lol. A part of me does love Dylan, though. Not in the idolizing way. Just feel connected to him for personal reasons idk. I joined yesterday. I feel like I need to kill myself tonight because after tomorrow night I become homeless. Also my best friend just told me earlier today she hopes I kill myself. So that kind of set me off. I just need advice on how to do this, for some reason people on my other thread are saying that this sounds impulsive of me and to wait on it. But I have wanted to CTB for years, this isn't impulsive, and i have always wanted to d1e by my own hands, not nature or something else. This will be my third attempt within two years. I don't need people telling me to think about this. I have. I just need help and advice.

Thank you. Yeah, I totally understand you. Dylan was on the road to be a good kid but got coerced by that shitty friend of his. And it sounds like your friend is too. Would you consider that person a "friend"?

I can empathise with his depression and loneliness. And now, with a bit of yours. But please don't hurt anybody.

Partial is as easy as finding a doorknob/a doorframe and a blanket. Then leaning down. Do you have an easier method like SN?

There is always plenty of time to die. Don't feel guilty about postponing if you don't feel ready.

Drop by at General Chat when you can, there's a lot of amazing people on there. We talk about methods too.

 

[SomewhatLoved]

I'm not really a Columbiner anymore, I left the tcc months ago and have grown out of it. I just joined this site on a whim and since I don't really have any interests right now, I chose this bc I didn't know what else to make it lol. A part of me does love Dylan, though. Not in the idolizing way. Just feel connected to him for personal reasons idk.

If you're "not really a Columbiner anymore", why would you put a school shooter as your username and profile picture? 12 students and 1 teacher lost their lives because those two idiots that day. 13 different families lost someone to homicide. One death is already a tragedy. It's fucking stupid and disgusting that you have that as your profile picture.

If you want to take your own life that's fine, it's yours and you can choose to end it if you want. But violence towards others is disgraceful. I'm here partially because of domestic violence, and I'm sure there are others who are here similarly because they have been victimized by or have seen forced to stand by and watch throughout their lives. When you glorify that shit you normalize it.

 

[dylankleboldlover]

Thank you. Yeah, I totally understand you. Dylan was on the road to be a good kid but got coerced by that shitty friend of his. And it sounds like your friend is too. Would you consider that person a "friend"?

I can empathise with his depression and loneliness. And now, with a bit of yours.

Partial is as easy as finding a doorknob/a doorframe and a blanket. Then leaning down. Do you have an easier method like SN?

There is always plenty of time to die. Don't feel guilty about postponing if you don't feel ready.

Drop by at General Chat when you can, there's a lot of amazing people on there. We talk about methods too.

I didnt even know that SN existed until yesterday when I was reading thru threads. I thought about it, but it seems that the site(s) used to obtain it are kept a secret, if you know you know, kind of thing. Understandably so, of course, it's just I don't think anyone would tell me. Plus poisoning seems scary to me. What if it takes a while to work? What if it doesnt work? Kind of thing. the most accessible thing I have is partial hanging. I think I'm going to try my doorknob now rather than my doorframe, because this is what Everyone is recommending. Can you give me advice/tips please?

If you're "not really a Columbiner anymore", why would you put a school shooter as your username and profile picture? 12 students and 1 teacher lost their lives because those two idiots that day. 13 different families lost someone to homicide. One death is already a tragedy. It's fucking stupid and disgusting that you have that as your profile picture.

If you want to take your own life that's fine, it's yours and you can choose to end it if you want. But violence towards others is disgraceful. I'm here partially because of domestic violence, and I'm sure there are others who are here similarly because they have been victimized by or have seen forced to stand by and watch throughout their lives. When you glorify that shit you normalize it.

now help me kill myself

I think they mean impulsive regarding your method. It doesn't sound like you've thought very hard about this and with lack of knowledge comes very serious mistakes and suffering. It would probably a better idea to do more research before using a method with such high failure rate but good luck to you regardless.

I need to die now
I have done research im just nervous for pain

 

[Avril]

I didnt even know that SN existed until yesterday when I was reading thru threads. I thought about it, but it seems that the site(s) used to obtain it are kept a secret, if you know you know, kind of thing. Understandably so, of course, it's just I don't think anyone would tell me. Plus poisoning seems scary to me. What if it takes a while to work? What if it doesnt work? Kind of thing. the most accessible thing I have is partial hanging. I think I'm going to try my doorknob now rather than my doorframe, because this is what Everyone is recommending. Can you give me advice/tips please?

now help me kill myself

I need to die now
I have done research im just nervous for pain

SN is quite difficult to procure these days, especially in the US and UK. But there are a few threads and resources that can point you in the right direction. I highly recommend that.

If you want to have a safer time on site, I do suggest changing your avatar, name and starting over. I hope everything goes as peaceful as possible for you.

 

[hang in there]

If you're "not really a Columbiner anymore", why would you put a school shooter as your username and profile picture? 12 students and 1 teacher lost their lives because those two idiots that day. 13 different families lost someone to homicide. One death is already a tragedy. It's fucking stupid and disgusting that you have that as your profile picture.

If you want to take your own life that's fine, it's yours and you can choose to end it if you want. But violence towards others is disgraceful. I'm here partially because of domestic violence, and I'm sure there are others who are here similarly because they have been victimized by or have seen forced to stand by and watch throughout their lives. When you glorify that shit you normalize it.

>One death is already a tragedy.
Do you even know where you are right now?
>It's fucking stupid and disgusting that you have that as your profile picture.
Wow, talk about fucking judgemental...
>When you glorify that shit you normalize it.
You've obviously never been on the other side. When you are so viciously mistreated by others something breaks in your mind permanently. To feel understood by people who are so hated and reviled by complete strangers, is something you will just never grasp. There's darker parts of life than suicide. There are instincts completely alien to soft, domesticated people who choose to shut their ears to human nature.
I can empathize with serial killers because we share similar upbringing and emotions. Although they ended up making bad decisions it does not completely strip them of humanity. We are at our very core violent, feral monkeys dressed in suits trying not to kill eachother with lists of rules and social ettiquette. Never forget that.

 

[dylankleboldlover]

>One death is already a tragedy.
Do you even know where you are right now?
>It's fucking stupid and disgusting that you have that as your profile picture.
Wow, talk about fucking judgemental...
>When you glorify that shit you normalize it.
You've obviously never been on the other side. When you are so viciously mistreated by others something breaks in your mind permanently. To feel understood by people who are so hated and reviled by complete strangers, is something you will just never grasp. There's darker parts of life than suicide. There are instincts completely alien to soft, domesticated people who choose to shut their ears to human nature.
I can empathize with serial killers because we share similar upbringing and emotions. Although they ended up making bad decisions it does not completely strip them of humanity. We are at our very core violent, feral monkeys dressed in suits trying not to kill eachother with lists of rules and social ettiquette. Never forget that.

Right like why are they telling me this on a suicide assist forum

SN is quite difficult to procure these days, especially in the US and UK. But there are a few threads and resources that can point you in the right direction. I highly recommend that.

If you want to have a safer time on site, I do suggest changing your avatar, name and starting over. I hope everything goes as peaceful as possible for you.

Thank you. Do you know of any threads/recourses for partial hanging? I'm pretty fixed on doing this, as this is literally the only accessible method. Also I am terrified of the pain of other methods like jumping, or even full/normal hanging

 

[no-hope-no-future]

I tried that my self and failed. I ended causing more problems. I couldn't eat or breath properly because of the damage I done ( I crushed a part of something in my neck) if you do it wrong, your be alive long enough to know you brain is losing its oxygen supply while still being aware of how much it hurts.

I should point out I was able to recover from it but it did take a few weeks. Wasn't a pleasant experience.

 

[dylankleboldlover]

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I tried that my self and failed. I ended causing more problems. I couldn't eat or breath properly because of the damage I done ( I crushed a part of something in my neck) if you do it wrong, your be alive long enough to know you brain is losing its oxygen supply while still being aware of how much it hurts.

I should point out I was able to recover from it but it did take a few weeks. Wasn't a pleasant experience.

Do you mind sharing how you tried? I'm killing myself today
Edit: adding tø say im sorry that happened and thank you for warning me. I hope you are able to find peace when you seek it

 

[no-hope-no-future]

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Do you mind sharing how you tried? I'm killing myself today
Edit: adding tø say im sorry that happened and thank you for warning me. I hope you are able to find peace when you seek it

Unfortunately the forum rules don't allow me to post those details.
I am truly sorry for all the pain and suffering you are going right now, I can't change what's happened in the past but maybe a virtual hug can maybe help just a little for the future. ❤